12:01.
Well...from what I can tell, things are gonna be very hectic and painful over the next week.
It's official. Andrea leaves next week, either Monday or Tuesday. She leaves today for Mackinaw Island with Craig and Leslie and won't be home until Thursday (Friday?). I've got to hang with her at least two of the days afterwards.
I ended up at her house last night, and we hung out. We did lots of talking, and we ordered things online. She got a Hindu necklace. I got a Lilith necklace, a Bjork DVD, and a Sonata Arctica t-shirt. I owe her like, $60. Child's play. We watched Holy Smoke too...I wanted to like it because of the plot, but I didn't like it THAT much. Not a movie I'd rush out to buy. But that's ok. Andrea's record of showing me kick-ass movies is already very impressive! =)
1. Run Lola Run: Good!
2. Boondock Saints: Great!
3. Vanilla Sky: Even better!
4. Eternal Sunshine (but I already saw it): and it's still awesome
5. Holy Smoke: Meh.
So she has a...80% success rate? Not too shabby. =)
I let a lot of things spill out to Andrea last night, and I meant every word. I'm gonna miss her terribly when she's gone. I've had connections before with people, but none quite as strong and intense as this one. She understands me, even when I'm really vague. I daresay I may never find that kind of thing again. I feel totally in love and totally destroyed at the same time: grateful and ashamed. She always told me that she didn't trust guys who said they loved her, and if she did, it took a lot of work. I say it not in a romantic sense, but as something a lot more...sacred.
Nicki made mention of this fact to me. She's seen me at my very worst. Andrea has seen me at my very best. If not for my damn poison ivy, she'd have seen me at my VERY best...(lol), but even that vague hope is lost from me. I can't explain things any better than that. She also said that my emo-ness will probably never fade. She's probably right.
Anyhoo...I've got work on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday from 5 to Late. Tonight I should be out around 10-10:30ish. Thursday and Friday, midnight. Saturday I'm at the track. It seems, for the time being, that money is not an issue.
But I got to go get my teeth cleaned...and then work.
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Xmas Day -by Sevendust
One step in the dark
Touch her hand just to see
If she's all alone again
Still she hasn't seen sun
But I promise you now when she wakes
There will be none
Don't know how she gets by
Sleeps with a phone on her chest
And a bottle that's totally dry
Forgets the day I was born
But if she saw me right now
She would hold me until we both die
I could be the one who would die to
feel you breathe
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I can't deny her. I'll do whatever
To stop all the bleeding that makes
her world so red
Such a delicate one
She screams so loud that I run to
hide from the sound
And I could be the one who would die
to feel you breathe
But it's too far-gone
And this love must die
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
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Later.
It's official. Andrea leaves next week, either Monday or Tuesday. She leaves today for Mackinaw Island with Craig and Leslie and won't be home until Thursday (Friday?). I've got to hang with her at least two of the days afterwards.
I ended up at her house last night, and we hung out. We did lots of talking, and we ordered things online. She got a Hindu necklace. I got a Lilith necklace, a Bjork DVD, and a Sonata Arctica t-shirt. I owe her like, $60. Child's play. We watched Holy Smoke too...I wanted to like it because of the plot, but I didn't like it THAT much. Not a movie I'd rush out to buy. But that's ok. Andrea's record of showing me kick-ass movies is already very impressive! =)
1. Run Lola Run: Good!
2. Boondock Saints: Great!
3. Vanilla Sky: Even better!
4. Eternal Sunshine (but I already saw it): and it's still awesome
5. Holy Smoke: Meh.
So she has a...80% success rate? Not too shabby. =)
I let a lot of things spill out to Andrea last night, and I meant every word. I'm gonna miss her terribly when she's gone. I've had connections before with people, but none quite as strong and intense as this one. She understands me, even when I'm really vague. I daresay I may never find that kind of thing again. I feel totally in love and totally destroyed at the same time: grateful and ashamed. She always told me that she didn't trust guys who said they loved her, and if she did, it took a lot of work. I say it not in a romantic sense, but as something a lot more...sacred.
Nicki made mention of this fact to me. She's seen me at my very worst. Andrea has seen me at my very best. If not for my damn poison ivy, she'd have seen me at my VERY best...(lol), but even that vague hope is lost from me. I can't explain things any better than that. She also said that my emo-ness will probably never fade. She's probably right.
Anyhoo...I've got work on Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday from 5 to Late. Tonight I should be out around 10-10:30ish. Thursday and Friday, midnight. Saturday I'm at the track. It seems, for the time being, that money is not an issue.
But I got to go get my teeth cleaned...and then work.
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Xmas Day -by Sevendust
One step in the dark
Touch her hand just to see
If she's all alone again
Still she hasn't seen sun
But I promise you now when she wakes
There will be none
Don't know how she gets by
Sleeps with a phone on her chest
And a bottle that's totally dry
Forgets the day I was born
But if she saw me right now
She would hold me until we both die
I could be the one who would die to
feel you breathe
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I can't deny her. I'll do whatever
To stop all the bleeding that makes
her world so red
Such a delicate one
She screams so loud that I run to
hide from the sound
And I could be the one who would die
to feel you breathe
But it's too far-gone
And this love must die
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
I could break into a million pieces
So just run as fast as you can for me
You mean everything
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Later.