First post in forever.
Wow...almost three months I left this bare.
I'll try to sum up what happened in that time.
Things with me and Nicki got worse and better all at the same time. We snuck about talking, even though the law said we couldn't. She always said she missed talking to me. I was always cautious that she might have just been saying that so she could expel me. Now that it's over...I guess she was telling the truth. She's still with that waste of life Bartos, and, for the record guys, she's not pregnant. I personally checked.
In FHS, I always said I hated that building, and I stayed true to my ways to the very end. I walked out of the building as a revolutionary, as one who defied Good's law, as one who had the attention of the entire student body, and who could influence a large amount of people with my word and deed. I even walked away with impressive grades and college credits. I'll be going to SVSU in the fall on full ride for the next four years. Therefore, money for schooling isn't an issue. I'll be focusing my cash on a few things, instead:
1.) A new car
2.) A place of my own
3.) Plane tickets
4.) Fun!
In my depths of loneliness at Delta and FHS, I met a girl who worked at Barne's & Noble. Her name was Andrea Harkins, and she's probably one of the hottest, most awesome girls I ever known thus far. Immediately I freaked out, but I figured, "Hell! It's college! Anything goes now, and I'm not the weirdo that the public makes me out to be here!" So I befriended her.
As my anticipation towards the end of my Senior Year grew, so did my affections for Andrea. Me and her talked more, discussed things, and eventually hung out outside of school. One fateful day, she invited me to a camping trip with her and her best friend. Only she went, and it was the best weekend of my life. I bet you can use your imaginations here. You'd be halfway wrong. But that night, I gained g/f number five.
Unfortunately, Nicki caught wind of this, and she tried all she could to bring me back. Andrea made sure that didn't happen. Nonetheless, the relationship wasnt' to last. The clock was ticking against both of us, and we broke it off because we both couldn't deal with getting torn apart the final day of the move. It hurt a lot...for both of us.
In the meantime in my life, I rose up the ranks of Eudici's relatively fast. Currently, I'm pending for an application to run shifts. It'd be great, because I fucking hate Shane like a bad itch. It'd be great to boss him around.
Currently, things with me and Andrea are at a nexus. The other night, I meant to spend the night with her, for many reasons. It was postponed twice before I eventually woke up one day and said, "Nothing's getting in my way!" Her breakdown that she had thought otherwise, and when the dust settled, I found myself back at home, about seventeen hours earlier than expected. I try to talk to her and stuff, but I feel like I'm getting pushed away. My friends at work tell me that there's nothing I can do when something like this happens, and Andrea herself told me that she hates being around people when she's like this.
I'll be brutally honest right here, and I don't care who reads. I'm pissed off. I'm pissed that I can't help, that I had to sit by and watch powerless, that I got no action that night, that no movies were watched, and that my gas tank has falled from 3/4ths to 1/4th in two days. But can I blame anyone but myself? Can I blame Andrea?
Of course not. She means the world to me. I can't talk badly about her at all, even if I do feel wronged in some strange way. I love when I'm with her. I love getting with her at night. I love talking about things, the adventures we have...and I guess for the first time, I realize that they're gonna disappear very soon. I mean, this is it.
...I'm gonna post more in here from now on.
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Draw Me -by Sonata Arctica
Blessed with an eye to see things as they are, will you draw me?
Up there on the wall, looking down to us all, you never saw me..
I found a pen, and I outlined a life.
You've never cried, I think I saw a tear in your eye.
Your eyes tell the tale, I will not ask again.
Now I see what you've lost nothing is quite the same.
By the love of my heart, cut my drawing in half, for I think I'm like you... Should you draw me...
Waiting for my evenfall.
Farewell, my passion, you slowly turn pale.
I will long for you warmth, made me feel safe.
I will not draw again, 'till I know it's my time.
I have lived a long life, should I draw me...
Morning's here, I must have....failed
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Later.
I'll try to sum up what happened in that time.
Things with me and Nicki got worse and better all at the same time. We snuck about talking, even though the law said we couldn't. She always said she missed talking to me. I was always cautious that she might have just been saying that so she could expel me. Now that it's over...I guess she was telling the truth. She's still with that waste of life Bartos, and, for the record guys, she's not pregnant. I personally checked.
In FHS, I always said I hated that building, and I stayed true to my ways to the very end. I walked out of the building as a revolutionary, as one who defied Good's law, as one who had the attention of the entire student body, and who could influence a large amount of people with my word and deed. I even walked away with impressive grades and college credits. I'll be going to SVSU in the fall on full ride for the next four years. Therefore, money for schooling isn't an issue. I'll be focusing my cash on a few things, instead:
1.) A new car
2.) A place of my own
3.) Plane tickets
4.) Fun!
In my depths of loneliness at Delta and FHS, I met a girl who worked at Barne's & Noble. Her name was Andrea Harkins, and she's probably one of the hottest, most awesome girls I ever known thus far. Immediately I freaked out, but I figured, "Hell! It's college! Anything goes now, and I'm not the weirdo that the public makes me out to be here!" So I befriended her.
As my anticipation towards the end of my Senior Year grew, so did my affections for Andrea. Me and her talked more, discussed things, and eventually hung out outside of school. One fateful day, she invited me to a camping trip with her and her best friend. Only she went, and it was the best weekend of my life. I bet you can use your imaginations here. You'd be halfway wrong. But that night, I gained g/f number five.
Unfortunately, Nicki caught wind of this, and she tried all she could to bring me back. Andrea made sure that didn't happen. Nonetheless, the relationship wasnt' to last. The clock was ticking against both of us, and we broke it off because we both couldn't deal with getting torn apart the final day of the move. It hurt a lot...for both of us.
In the meantime in my life, I rose up the ranks of Eudici's relatively fast. Currently, I'm pending for an application to run shifts. It'd be great, because I fucking hate Shane like a bad itch. It'd be great to boss him around.
Currently, things with me and Andrea are at a nexus. The other night, I meant to spend the night with her, for many reasons. It was postponed twice before I eventually woke up one day and said, "Nothing's getting in my way!" Her breakdown that she had thought otherwise, and when the dust settled, I found myself back at home, about seventeen hours earlier than expected. I try to talk to her and stuff, but I feel like I'm getting pushed away. My friends at work tell me that there's nothing I can do when something like this happens, and Andrea herself told me that she hates being around people when she's like this.
I'll be brutally honest right here, and I don't care who reads. I'm pissed off. I'm pissed that I can't help, that I had to sit by and watch powerless, that I got no action that night, that no movies were watched, and that my gas tank has falled from 3/4ths to 1/4th in two days. But can I blame anyone but myself? Can I blame Andrea?
Of course not. She means the world to me. I can't talk badly about her at all, even if I do feel wronged in some strange way. I love when I'm with her. I love getting with her at night. I love talking about things, the adventures we have...and I guess for the first time, I realize that they're gonna disappear very soon. I mean, this is it.
...I'm gonna post more in here from now on.
--------------------------
Draw Me -by Sonata Arctica
Blessed with an eye to see things as they are, will you draw me?
Up there on the wall, looking down to us all, you never saw me..
I found a pen, and I outlined a life.
You've never cried, I think I saw a tear in your eye.
Your eyes tell the tale, I will not ask again.
Now I see what you've lost nothing is quite the same.
By the love of my heart, cut my drawing in half, for I think I'm like you... Should you draw me...
Waiting for my evenfall.
Farewell, my passion, you slowly turn pale.
I will long for you warmth, made me feel safe.
I will not draw again, 'till I know it's my time.
I have lived a long life, should I draw me...
Morning's here, I must have....failed
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Later.