Don't Dwell...Move Forward...But Be Careful...
I've come to the conclusion that things in life aren't always the way we want them to be. I've always had a "romantic" view of life and love in the back of my head. The thought that someday I would fall deeply, madly, and truly in love with someone and always love them to the day I die. So far, in my 18 years of living life, I have yet to see more than one or two couples experience this and both were in a movie! That thought scares me. The thought that I might get divorced once, twice, or possibly three times in my life, like the rest of my family. The thought that someone may never really love me. The thought that life seems to be centered around love and finding the "perfect someone." These thoughts scare me even more.
What I mean by all of this, is not that I hope to never find love, because I do, it's just that I hope it finds me too. So...from all of this...whoever reads this is probably going to think that I'm weird or a sentimental freak. But all of us, at some point in time have thought or will think about life in the future and the thought of love. Most people don't want to die alone, and I don't either.
I guess...that even though I have all of these thought running through my head...I still have another. There have been movies and books and other stuff about it. And truth be told, even though I want to find love and I want it to find me too, I don't want to settle down right now and live that life. I also want to rely on myself. I want the satisfaction of knowing that if now or ever my heart gets stepped on, I can still rely on myself. And I want the satisfaction of knowing that the what has happened in the past can help me in the future and to not look back, but rather forward.
So keep reading, and hopefully whoever reads this, won't laugh at my poor poetry writing, but rather they will take in and think about the feels that go along with it.
You know that feeling when life won’t stop and you want it to.
You know that feeling that you get when it rains and you feel like everything bad in your life is being washed away.
You know that feeling that you get when someone smiles at you and you don’t smile back.
You know that feeling when you really don’t have any feelings at all.
The feeling that the world is against you.
The feeling like nothing matters.
The feeling like a phone call might help, but you know it won’t happen.
Not being able to feel anything is the worst thing in the world.
Living through the sad feelings.
Living through the happy feelings.
Living through the feelings of wondering what you just did and why.
Even though these feelings might or might not be the ones we hope for, they are still feelings.
They help us to live life.
They help us cherish what we have, good and bad.
They help us learn from our mistakes, so our smile can make the difference.
They help us learn to rely on ourselves and not a phone call.
But most of all, they help us learn to not look back.
What I mean by all of this, is not that I hope to never find love, because I do, it's just that I hope it finds me too. So...from all of this...whoever reads this is probably going to think that I'm weird or a sentimental freak. But all of us, at some point in time have thought or will think about life in the future and the thought of love. Most people don't want to die alone, and I don't either.
I guess...that even though I have all of these thought running through my head...I still have another. There have been movies and books and other stuff about it. And truth be told, even though I want to find love and I want it to find me too, I don't want to settle down right now and live that life. I also want to rely on myself. I want the satisfaction of knowing that if now or ever my heart gets stepped on, I can still rely on myself. And I want the satisfaction of knowing that the what has happened in the past can help me in the future and to not look back, but rather forward.
So keep reading, and hopefully whoever reads this, won't laugh at my poor poetry writing, but rather they will take in and think about the feels that go along with it.
You know that feeling when life won’t stop and you want it to.
You know that feeling that you get when it rains and you feel like everything bad in your life is being washed away.
You know that feeling that you get when someone smiles at you and you don’t smile back.
You know that feeling when you really don’t have any feelings at all.
The feeling that the world is against you.
The feeling like nothing matters.
The feeling like a phone call might help, but you know it won’t happen.
Not being able to feel anything is the worst thing in the world.
Living through the sad feelings.
Living through the happy feelings.
Living through the feelings of wondering what you just did and why.
Even though these feelings might or might not be the ones we hope for, they are still feelings.
They help us to live life.
They help us cherish what we have, good and bad.
They help us learn from our mistakes, so our smile can make the difference.
They help us learn to rely on ourselves and not a phone call.
But most of all, they help us learn to not look back.