wow.
i lead an exciting life. seriously.
i have amazing friends all over the place.
i love being random.
i love just doing what i want to do.
just picking up and leaving is... one of my new favourite things.
i sat on the go train today and just watched everything go by. like i do on any form of transit. i think it's really funny that no one will ever sit with me until there's actually not other seats left. i guess i'm more scary looking then i think.
anyways, tonight for the second time this week i got to watch the sun set.
i love sunsets way too much.
i love listening to acoustic music and watching the sunset and the trees fly by.
it makes me feel like im in a movie.
it makes me feel important.
thats stupid.
but it makes me feel really good.
i went for dinner with my mom tonight. she rules. and she really loves the olympics...kind of like you. she really loves you too.
we talked about you. she always likes to know how you are, only this time i didn't really know what to tell her. because i don't know whats going on with you and everytime i've tried to talk to you, you don't seem too into talking. i know you've been unhappy lately. really unhappy. but, i'm not going to lie, it makes me a little pissed that you would rather be somewhere that no one knows you, or speaks your language, than here where there's ample people that love and care about you if you'd just let them once and a while.
i know you like to be independant.
i know you're used to being like that and doing things that way.
but you don't always have to do things on your own.
you don't have to be alone in dealing with things... even my mom would be willing to just listen to you.. give you advice.. a confidence boost? she told me so herself. and it should be a given by now that I OBVIOUSLY will.
i just don't know what to tell you anymore. honestly. you know how much i love you. you know that i would do anything for you, it just seems like anything positive i try and tell you lately you find something bad in it.
you're just worrying me.
and i wish i knew what to do for you.
i guess thats all.
i guess you'll eventually pull yourself out.
i just wish i could speed up the process and get my muffin face back.
i love you.
i have amazing friends all over the place.
i love being random.
i love just doing what i want to do.
just picking up and leaving is... one of my new favourite things.
i sat on the go train today and just watched everything go by. like i do on any form of transit. i think it's really funny that no one will ever sit with me until there's actually not other seats left. i guess i'm more scary looking then i think.
anyways, tonight for the second time this week i got to watch the sun set.
i love sunsets way too much.
i love listening to acoustic music and watching the sunset and the trees fly by.
it makes me feel like im in a movie.
it makes me feel important.
thats stupid.
but it makes me feel really good.
i went for dinner with my mom tonight. she rules. and she really loves the olympics...kind of like you. she really loves you too.
we talked about you. she always likes to know how you are, only this time i didn't really know what to tell her. because i don't know whats going on with you and everytime i've tried to talk to you, you don't seem too into talking. i know you've been unhappy lately. really unhappy. but, i'm not going to lie, it makes me a little pissed that you would rather be somewhere that no one knows you, or speaks your language, than here where there's ample people that love and care about you if you'd just let them once and a while.
i know you like to be independant.
i know you're used to being like that and doing things that way.
but you don't always have to do things on your own.
you don't have to be alone in dealing with things... even my mom would be willing to just listen to you.. give you advice.. a confidence boost? she told me so herself. and it should be a given by now that I OBVIOUSLY will.
i just don't know what to tell you anymore. honestly. you know how much i love you. you know that i would do anything for you, it just seems like anything positive i try and tell you lately you find something bad in it.
you're just worrying me.
and i wish i knew what to do for you.
i guess thats all.
i guess you'll eventually pull yourself out.
i just wish i could speed up the process and get my muffin face back.
i love you.