Been a while
Wow it has been a while since I wrote here. I have had a lot of not so good stuff happen recently. I won't go into too much detail for two reasons, number one being that it would take me forever to type and I am too lazy, lol, and number two is that I don't want to bore whoever is reading this. If you want to read the basic details, then
Basically, it is all to do with my nerves and anxiety. I have had a really bad time of it recently. Nothing I do is helping. I have been seeing a doctor/therapist for it for a couple of years, and although I have made improvements over those 2 years, they are only small and not as big improvements as I want.
I have been very depressed about all of this. I haven't told many people online because there isn't really much I can say. I started going on anti-depressants, but they didn't help....I was only on a low dose...like the lowest you can be on, which is the starter dose. They didn't make me feel right so I stopped taking them and I feel better than when I was on them.
Anyway, I am feeling a bit better about things now. I have good days and bad days. I have taken some time away from LJ related things, so thanks to the people who haven't deleted me in friends cuts. But I am going to try and get back into things.
I have been spending a lot of time with my sister Kelly which I love and makes me happy. And when I have been online, I have been updating my sites alot to take my mind off things, and also spending time on the allthinX forum (in my links section of my LJ) which also makes me happy. And when I have bad days, I watch my DVD boxsets (as you know I am a TV show addict!). Also, and please don't bash me for this as I know there are a lot of people who don't like her, I have been reading Teri Hatcher's book "Burnt Toast", which I am enjoying. I actually think it is helping in a way, because it mentions a few things which I relate to with my nerves (worrying about what people think, etc) and how she deals with them, which makes me think more positively when I am worrying about things. So whether people like her or not, I am grateful because the book seems to be helping me think differently, even if it is only very small changes!
Anyway, that is it. I just realized I typed a lot more than I intended, and I didn't even go into details! LOL At least it explains my absence from LJ. Like I say, I am trying to get back into things. I am seeing my doctor/therapist again next week, so we will see how that goes! :)
Basically, it is all to do with my nerves and anxiety. I have had a really bad time of it recently. Nothing I do is helping. I have been seeing a doctor/therapist for it for a couple of years, and although I have made improvements over those 2 years, they are only small and not as big improvements as I want.
I have been very depressed about all of this. I haven't told many people online because there isn't really much I can say. I started going on anti-depressants, but they didn't help....I was only on a low dose...like the lowest you can be on, which is the starter dose. They didn't make me feel right so I stopped taking them and I feel better than when I was on them.
Anyway, I am feeling a bit better about things now. I have good days and bad days. I have taken some time away from LJ related things, so thanks to the people who haven't deleted me in friends cuts. But I am going to try and get back into things.
I have been spending a lot of time with my sister Kelly which I love and makes me happy. And when I have been online, I have been updating my sites alot to take my mind off things, and also spending time on the allthinX forum (in my links section of my LJ) which also makes me happy. And when I have bad days, I watch my DVD boxsets (as you know I am a TV show addict!). Also, and please don't bash me for this as I know there are a lot of people who don't like her, I have been reading Teri Hatcher's book "Burnt Toast", which I am enjoying. I actually think it is helping in a way, because it mentions a few things which I relate to with my nerves (worrying about what people think, etc) and how she deals with them, which makes me think more positively when I am worrying about things. So whether people like her or not, I am grateful because the book seems to be helping me think differently, even if it is only very small changes!
Anyway, that is it. I just realized I typed a lot more than I intended, and I didn't even go into details! LOL At least it explains my absence from LJ. Like I say, I am trying to get back into things. I am seeing my doctor/therapist again next week, so we will see how that goes! :)