Dreams are the gateway into the mind.
So, for almost the last 2 or 3 weeks, almost every other night I've been having this reocurring dream. It's weird because I'm with all of my friends from Holy Cross. I don't really know where we are, its like a park or something. And, all of my senior class is in it. And, its just like high school used to be. And, then I see her, all happy with her friends. It's weird because unlike in real life I'm not scared in the dream. I just walk up to her and talk to her. It's still awkward like it was sometimes. Because, obviously, for reasons unknown to me, her friends don't like me. I don't know exactly what it is they have against me but its something. They kinda pull her away, not necessarily because its me, but its just like it was a few months ago. But, this time I actually have balls. I go back to my friends, but the next time I see her, I walk up to her and kiss her. It's weird, because it's what I wanted to do for quite a long time, but never got the chance to, or even if I did get a chance, like at prom, or any other times, I just never took advantage of it, yaknow? I fucked alot of things up at the end of the year. And, whether something really was there or not, I still wanted it to be. I would've done anything to make it right. But, she didn't care. She probably never did. Well, thats about the part in the dream where I wake up. Not knowing what happens next...
I wish I knew what happened next.
I wish I knew what happened next.