Listen to the words that I have to say.
I wiped the paint off of your face, rubbing your cheek as you smiled. And you were looking into my eyes as if this was some sort of mystery. A place of unknowns. A place of fascination.
"Yes-that was a time." You said. "That was a time I wanted to kiss you."
I just looked away, because that's what I'm supposed to do. I can't look because of the pain that would follow. The love that would follow,
the feeling that would follow.
I guess because it was so unbearable. This feeling has never surfaced to me before. I hope that I let you know that.
I really just can't stop the tears today.
You placed your hand on my face, I closed my eyes, to dwell on the feeling. You're just so...gentle.
I hate not being in control of my life. and that's exactly where I am right now.
I knew what the right thing to do was, and I hope it's not too soon. I hope my heart isn't crushed into a million pieces. I hope I don't have to be the one to pick the pieces up.
Each tear trickles down my cheek, with one memory attached, wondering if I'll ever forget. Wondering how much I truly do take for granted.
I now know what it's like to be stuck. To be backed into that corner, and to have no where to look but into her eyes-to reveal the truth. And to see her tears.
I hope I'm over reacting. I tend to do that sometimes. The people who feel that, know it's only because I care.
I'm physically shaking right now. My eyes keep shifting away, looking up, trying to find my logic...
because I've lost it somewhere.
I've lost it in your blue eyes.
Yes-blue. Not green. The colors have changed.
I'm leaving tomorrow, but I don't even know if I can make it through today.
I can't do this on my own.
"So I close my eyes, let this whole thing pass me by, there is no time to waste, asking why...
I'll run away with you...
by my side."
Be by my side. Please. I couldn't ask for anything else in the world right now. Grab my hand. I'm blind, and I don't know which way is up anymore.
I want you to tell me what's going to happen. I want you to tell me everything's going to be okay. I want you to predict the future and tell me she'll still be there. And so will you.
Yes, tell me my fortune. I don't see it anywhere around here.
It's been grey outside for 4 days now. The day after Sunday.
The day after Sunday.
I want to sun to come out soon.
I'm so ready for hope.
It started off as me touching your cheek. It started off as you telling me I'm beautiful. It started off by me not being able to let go of your eyes.
She told me they were beautiful. I always knew. But I never understood.
Until now.
Yes-Until now.
I really just can't stop the tears today.