the walls are closing in and this loneliness is staining my skin
Okay so I got a call from the Family Placement Team yesterday in regards to my queries in tracing my birth parents.
Oh for those flisties that don't know, I'm adopted.
I don't consider it common knowledge as such but most RL friends know about it so just thought I'd clear up some of the confusion.
Anyways, the phone call!
To say it freaked the shit out of me would be the starkest of stark understatements!
I honestly don't know why I was so freaked but I sort of sat still for an hour after hanging up the phone and didn't move or talk.
I'm pretty sure I stopped blinking too!
I just wasn't expecting the call! I mean I called them way back in October after having a really shitty day where everything was getting me down!
And they decide to call back now
It's bringing a whole lot of old insecurities flooding back to the surface!
Insecurities that I really could do without right now because I'm super stressed about coursework and my exams! Plus I think my dad is going through a mid-life crisis!
Yeah so I've got a meeting on February 2nd which I'm trying not to think about!
Life is this close from being completely sucky right now!
Oh for those flisties that don't know, I'm adopted.
I don't consider it common knowledge as such but most RL friends know about it so just thought I'd clear up some of the confusion.
Anyways, the phone call!
To say it freaked the shit out of me would be the starkest of stark understatements!
I honestly don't know why I was so freaked but I sort of sat still for an hour after hanging up the phone and didn't move or talk.
I'm pretty sure I stopped blinking too!
I just wasn't expecting the call! I mean I called them way back in October after having a really shitty day where everything was getting me down!
And they decide to call back now
It's bringing a whole lot of old insecurities flooding back to the surface!
Insecurities that I really could do without right now because I'm super stressed about coursework and my exams! Plus I think my dad is going through a mid-life crisis!
Yeah so I've got a meeting on February 2nd which I'm trying not to think about!
Life is this close from being completely sucky right now!