A life without music.

[time_will_pass]

Ani is a quick fix for me. She is the music that cuts to the quick. But I don't have her anymore. My computer died. A year ago or so. And I've been trying to get Duane (who owns a very large and eclectic music collection) to send me CD's. Well it all came to a head yesterday when the lack of music finally hit me. I hated not having a soundtrack for everything that is going on right now. When I called him I asked him to burn me a few CD's he asked why I didn't have any music.. so I reminded him that my computer died.. and that I have no music.. at all.. He asked if I had any CD's the only CD that I really own right now is Dave Matthews Band "Under the Table and Dreaming" as nice as that is.. its the ONLY one I own.. so.. after almost a year of asking for music I think I might actually get some music here soon.

But the good news is that I found Pandora.. well found again. so I'm entering a few artists in to get some music..

however.. I have become a recluse. hiding in the top floor of the house.. being quiet.. for those of you who know me. you know that this is different than the usual me.. something about being here has change me.. something about my relationship with David has changed me..

I cannot pin it down to a moment or a day.. but something has shifted. It's almost as if I'm done with Cleveland..

we'll see how this all plays out