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so ive gone from being okay with my job to having a meltdown.. I just cannot tolerate it any more it seems.. and there are little things that i can quantify but there is a lot here that i cant.. i cant pin down why exactly i dislike it so much.. but i do.. and its driving me up a wall.. i like jobs that i have to option to leave work at work.. but if i want i can take home.. but ive had that before so thats not too bad.. there is something about this job presently that makes me NOT want to tolerate it any more.. and not having another job lined up pisses me off.. i feel like im unprepared for reality.. and more so.. if this job is my reality right now.. i dont want to be here..

egh.. i have processing to do.. this shit is kicking up so many emotional storm clouds.. i dont know where to start..