Sep 05, 2005 01:30
Is it okay to say that a single song can be the soundtrack of a turning point in your life? Keeping someone on your mind even though they can't or won't be around you is my new theme. I'll keep you up there, wandering the rivers and valleys of my mind. I realize how futile that can be, and don't care. I refuse to be depressed about something that I have no control over. So what can you do? Be happy, live your life, make yourself a better person by standing, undaunted in front of the mirror everyday and believe that you are meant for something. Try to love yourself, and forgive all the stupid choices you've made. Let yourself be healed by the essentials: laughter, passions, friendships, words.
At a turning point a decision is necessary. Do you want to live like this, or like that? A change is inevitable and also necessary. Should you allow yourself to turn at the point, or back down and stay the course? Is this a positive or negative feeling in your gut?
My turning point is pretty simple: I will live my life as I see fit, and focus on the things that are good, not dwelling on what I don't have, and not being depressed by events that have recently occurred. Start letting myself think of this as a positive thing, and of possibilities instead of walls. Stop asking questions and begin acceptance.
Lou Rawls has a song called "Gentle on My Mind" and it is the sound of my new found acceptance that you will always have a place in my mind, and my heart. Also, that the lack of your presence in my life, though hard, and sad, is a necessary part of the timeline.
wow, I feel peaceful now. Thank you Live journal.