who doesn't love a new years post
mostly I do this for my own reflection but I'm going to recap the year month by month. Feel free to dabble in my musings.
This has been the longest year of my life. I don't think I've changed so much in one year as I have this year. And now to reflect at it all:
January: A new year to experience. My first diplomas that didn't go to badly but I should have worked harder (I always realize this) Broke up, only to get back together shortly there after. I personally think that it was lame and I'm so thankful for all I learned about myself.
February: Valentine's day with the precious. Birthday. Kirsten. The worst decision I ever made. Back to work. Dropping out of French
March: Allowing myself to be controlled by someone else. Letting myself be used and being a general tool. I don't know if she knows this but I will always be grateful to Kirsten for all that she has taught me. I learned more about myself from having her living with me than I have from anyone else. She was my best friend and I'll always love her. I know now that I sometimes let my true self be jeopardized but I will always be grateful for our experiences that we had together. We laughed so hard sometimes (Drive-thrus? I think so)I don't know why I can only say this on the lameosity that is LJ but anyone who knows me realizes that my biggest vice is my pride.
April: I don't really remember what happened in this month. Maybe I was accepted to universtiy at this time. Preparing for skills canada? most likely. Still caught up in what I should have never been involved with. I probably continued to enjoy English class. What a gongshow
May:Graduation part une. Crying when Sarah came over. Making mistakes. Skills Canada's first and 4th placing. Going to Winnipeg where the last time I was there I was like 6mos. Kicked out of the dance recital. Quit work.
June:This was climax number one for the year, ironically it's the middle. More diplomas. The 'grad' trip that was a ruiner/maker of me. Kirsten leaving and me never being the same. My family moves. Graduation part deux. The historians. Realizing high school is coming to a close. Planting seeds in the flower beds
July:Living with the Lokhorsts who I will always be grateful towards for always letting me be a part of their family. Joey the beginning and end. What a nice boy he deserves better. Back to work. Disappointment that work was still Superstore. Randomly hanging out with others, and becoming closer with people I didn't know so well. Discovering a buttload of excellent music that I still love. Requiem for a Dream, Pulp Fiction, Kill Bills. Parties
August:Gull Lake with Sarah. A night romp with Aimee (I think it was August the summer really was a blurr. Mrs. Garbin's mom working in the deli. Sadness. Finally being happy for him and moving on. Leaving and not being able to cry in front of anyone. Missing certian people more than others and though it was weird that it was them not being really shocked that it was who I didn't suspect. My first real date. Lurving value village. Starting the biggest move.
September:University. Living alone. Becoming better friends with Rachel. Climax number 2. Everything about this month is about me moving out and going to big girl school. Institute. And sewing for Lisa
October:Thanksgiving:Sleepover and Turkey with the Dakin's. Reuinting with Sarah. Fort McMurray hangover. Depression. Not knowing what I want to be. Confusion. Yellowcard and WEM. Midterms. Bars?!? CJSR. Garden State and Napoleon Dynamite. Working more at moving on and being my own own self.
November: Pookie. Randomness, affection and my first love. Rememberance day weekend. Missing something but having something else. More Midterms--I 'love' arts. Being stood up!Moving on from the big confusion
December Finals. Learning how to study which was something I should have learned long ago but only now got the hang of. Intense Girl talks with Rachel. More love and the most intensity I've ever felt towards anyone. Christmas. Coming home and having a love hate relationship with the idea. Daily Pookie. Getting what I want!
I've changed so much this year. I don't even think I would recognize my old self. I've lost best friends but made really good new ones. There isn't one word or one song that can describe this whole year. I've dealt with things that are more intense than ever before. I've gone from hating myself to loving myself to loveing someone else. I've done things over and over that I wish I had never done and I've revealed things about myself I never knew were a part of me. I've been a baby and I've been brave. Seriously though I cannot even sum up how different I feel looking back, but I think I've become new and improved. I guess everyday we live is just learning how to live and that's what I'm doing
Happy New Years Everyone! I will be in fort mcmurray tomorrow and I will give my soul to see you all because I miss you so much! Those at WW still I will for sure be stopping by. Those that aren't I will stalk you until I find you. I've been perfecting my technique as of late
This has been the longest year of my life. I don't think I've changed so much in one year as I have this year. And now to reflect at it all:
January: A new year to experience. My first diplomas that didn't go to badly but I should have worked harder (I always realize this) Broke up, only to get back together shortly there after. I personally think that it was lame and I'm so thankful for all I learned about myself.
February: Valentine's day with the precious. Birthday. Kirsten. The worst decision I ever made. Back to work. Dropping out of French
March: Allowing myself to be controlled by someone else. Letting myself be used and being a general tool. I don't know if she knows this but I will always be grateful to Kirsten for all that she has taught me. I learned more about myself from having her living with me than I have from anyone else. She was my best friend and I'll always love her. I know now that I sometimes let my true self be jeopardized but I will always be grateful for our experiences that we had together. We laughed so hard sometimes (Drive-thrus? I think so)I don't know why I can only say this on the lameosity that is LJ but anyone who knows me realizes that my biggest vice is my pride.
April: I don't really remember what happened in this month. Maybe I was accepted to universtiy at this time. Preparing for skills canada? most likely. Still caught up in what I should have never been involved with. I probably continued to enjoy English class. What a gongshow
May:Graduation part une. Crying when Sarah came over. Making mistakes. Skills Canada's first and 4th placing. Going to Winnipeg where the last time I was there I was like 6mos. Kicked out of the dance recital. Quit work.
June:This was climax number one for the year, ironically it's the middle. More diplomas. The 'grad' trip that was a ruiner/maker of me. Kirsten leaving and me never being the same. My family moves. Graduation part deux. The historians. Realizing high school is coming to a close. Planting seeds in the flower beds
July:Living with the Lokhorsts who I will always be grateful towards for always letting me be a part of their family. Joey the beginning and end. What a nice boy he deserves better. Back to work. Disappointment that work was still Superstore. Randomly hanging out with others, and becoming closer with people I didn't know so well. Discovering a buttload of excellent music that I still love. Requiem for a Dream, Pulp Fiction, Kill Bills. Parties
August:Gull Lake with Sarah. A night romp with Aimee (I think it was August the summer really was a blurr. Mrs. Garbin's mom working in the deli. Sadness. Finally being happy for him and moving on. Leaving and not being able to cry in front of anyone. Missing certian people more than others and though it was weird that it was them not being really shocked that it was who I didn't suspect. My first real date. Lurving value village. Starting the biggest move.
September:University. Living alone. Becoming better friends with Rachel. Climax number 2. Everything about this month is about me moving out and going to big girl school. Institute. And sewing for Lisa
October:Thanksgiving:Sleepover and Turkey with the Dakin's. Reuinting with Sarah. Fort McMurray hangover. Depression. Not knowing what I want to be. Confusion. Yellowcard and WEM. Midterms. Bars?!? CJSR. Garden State and Napoleon Dynamite. Working more at moving on and being my own own self.
November: Pookie. Randomness, affection and my first love. Rememberance day weekend. Missing something but having something else. More Midterms--I 'love' arts. Being stood up!Moving on from the big confusion
December Finals. Learning how to study which was something I should have learned long ago but only now got the hang of. Intense Girl talks with Rachel. More love and the most intensity I've ever felt towards anyone. Christmas. Coming home and having a love hate relationship with the idea. Daily Pookie. Getting what I want!
I've changed so much this year. I don't even think I would recognize my old self. I've lost best friends but made really good new ones. There isn't one word or one song that can describe this whole year. I've dealt with things that are more intense than ever before. I've gone from hating myself to loving myself to loveing someone else. I've done things over and over that I wish I had never done and I've revealed things about myself I never knew were a part of me. I've been a baby and I've been brave. Seriously though I cannot even sum up how different I feel looking back, but I think I've become new and improved. I guess everyday we live is just learning how to live and that's what I'm doing
Happy New Years Everyone! I will be in fort mcmurray tomorrow and I will give my soul to see you all because I miss you so much! Those at WW still I will for sure be stopping by. Those that aren't I will stalk you until I find you. I've been perfecting my technique as of late