A new slate..

[timdg]

Ok i had deleted the last four entries and have deiced to kind of start anew. So I am in the middle. I am making stupid choices and I am stoping it right now! I like two guys. they both make me feel very good, but one is more then the other. I am just..... not sure. I love both of them and I dont know how. I know that i am acting stupid and I

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[jennblader]

That's a start. However, you're still being childish. You're throwing the term love around like it means nothing. Love is not something you experience right off the bat for more than one person. If you're LUCKY, you'll find someone you'll know you'll love but it takes time to develop that love. You're thinking with your dick and it's embarassing. I thought you were different from that Timothy.

If you are dating one, you have no reason to leave him unless he specifically gives you a reason. Leaving one man for another is one of the worst things you can do. It's childish, selfish and down right an awful action.

Think with your brain and your heart. Not with your dick. Stop thinking that every man you meet can give you sex. You're acting worse than a guy. You're acting like a gay guy thinking that he can turn every man he meets gay so he can have him. That's worse than selfish, Timothy. Get a grip on your mind--the one below your waist--and you figure out what's to be done. You are how old? 14 or 15? You should not have had sex by not and certainly not by more than 1 person if you have. How many times do you claim to have had sex? Or have you begun your compulsive lying again?

Grow up.

BEHAVE.

I know...

[timdg]

I know, and i am not going to say your wrong, because your not. I am 16 and your right i shouldn't have had sex but it happened and nothing could change it. but I can change the way I act and I am trying. And another note, Everything in my journal is true to the bone, I can only lie in person and even then there is now more truth then lies. I am trying so hard not to lie and so far I am doing well. So what now? To learn about the word love, not sex wise but the true meaning of the word. I know it will take awhile Jenn, and I know you know too. So thats that....right?