Well another day.

[timdg]

Hey its been a while. Umm what has changed... Well I am not aloud to see Rick anymore but I am trying to avoid that. I think I am in love or in some form of it anyway. I mean he has changed my veiw on a lot of things and it was for the better. I love him. I can't just listen to my damn sister say that I am not aloud to see him. A guy that is so close to my heart that I would take a bullet for him. This guy is the one person that I would do anything for, I care about him more than anyone else. and Now I am not aloud to see him? What the hell is up with that? I don't understand what this world is comming to. I mean if two people love each other so much why can't they be together? I mean I love him very much but I am not sure how he feels..... but still Why can't we at least be... friends? This SUcks! Everything here sucks I hate it here. I cry at night because of all the pain this place gives me. I mean if I can't be with the one I truley love then what the hell am I still doing here? WHAT DO I DO?!?! I am in great pain.... What should I do? Listen to my sister and ignor someone who good become a very good thing for me, or forget my sister and risk my life as a normal (minus the gay thing) boy? What do I do? I really want to see him and be with him but on the other hand I can't. What the fuck is up with that??? Anyway I hope all is well with you guys...

B.Wolf