daily update
well i didn't work out today. i woke up way to late to get it done. i hate that. it seems to be the hardest thing to do is just get up. so for now on my bed time is going to be 10pm. i have been staying up to 12 or 1 for about two weeks and that has to stop.
so i am going to get up at 5:30 in the morning. first thing ever morning is to write. finished works i will post on my myspace acount or here if its small enough.
second thing will be to work out. i have a small plan as to what way i am going to go with it. i am really interested in geting the arms shoulders and back to work again.
thrid thing is to write out what the 10 things are. in my mind there are ten things that precede everything. i might make a site ust for it to. i use to live by the ten things at all times. i wish i could remeber all of it though. i use to have a note book that had all those thoughts in it. for some reason i threw it out last year out of spite. i hate it when i do that.
the fourth thing i am gonna do is meditate for no less than 15 mins. i use to do this every day after streaching. i was really good wit it and had lots of odd things come to mind. i think it might improve my mood to. it seems that everyone thinks i am being mean again. for the past few weeks i seem to be agravating everyone and a little mouthy. i have no idea if its true ( not being honest with myself here because i know it is true.) ut i have been in alot of pain for the past few weeks. it seems to be getting worce enough that i have been downing a couple of beers for the past three days. thats not good. i know i have alcoholic tendencies and don't want that as a pattern.
the problem is my hips to my toes. lots of pain there. its like when your finger is really really stiff, and then you pull at to get the knuckles to move. all you get is a ache. well thats how my lower half feels. my arms are killing me. they feel like a stubbed toe throbbing. the right one is way worse that the left. i find myself unconsciencely rubbing it all the time when i am not doing something with it. hell i hurt so bad i self servicing is out of the question. haha
besides all that the rest of me is fine.
made up my mind on the canvas. not what i wanted so i am not gonna spend the money on it.
i lost my pics of the icons i was going to use. i have no idea where they went . that sucks.
so i am going to get up at 5:30 in the morning. first thing ever morning is to write. finished works i will post on my myspace acount or here if its small enough.
second thing will be to work out. i have a small plan as to what way i am going to go with it. i am really interested in geting the arms shoulders and back to work again.
thrid thing is to write out what the 10 things are. in my mind there are ten things that precede everything. i might make a site ust for it to. i use to live by the ten things at all times. i wish i could remeber all of it though. i use to have a note book that had all those thoughts in it. for some reason i threw it out last year out of spite. i hate it when i do that.
the fourth thing i am gonna do is meditate for no less than 15 mins. i use to do this every day after streaching. i was really good wit it and had lots of odd things come to mind. i think it might improve my mood to. it seems that everyone thinks i am being mean again. for the past few weeks i seem to be agravating everyone and a little mouthy. i have no idea if its true ( not being honest with myself here because i know it is true.) ut i have been in alot of pain for the past few weeks. it seems to be getting worce enough that i have been downing a couple of beers for the past three days. thats not good. i know i have alcoholic tendencies and don't want that as a pattern.
the problem is my hips to my toes. lots of pain there. its like when your finger is really really stiff, and then you pull at to get the knuckles to move. all you get is a ache. well thats how my lower half feels. my arms are killing me. they feel like a stubbed toe throbbing. the right one is way worse that the left. i find myself unconsciencely rubbing it all the time when i am not doing something with it. hell i hurt so bad i self servicing is out of the question. haha
besides all that the rest of me is fine.
made up my mind on the canvas. not what i wanted so i am not gonna spend the money on it.
i lost my pics of the icons i was going to use. i have no idea where they went . that sucks.