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the monster that is anxiety has its hands tightly gripped around my throat at the moment. i cant concentrate or focus on anything. my wrists and fingers feel tense and stiff as i am writing this. i keep jumping from one thing to another. i tried making a list, as somtimes organizing my thoughts calms me down, but not this time. i just found out that in a discussion without me, my employer will only allow me two weeks off for my four week china trip. they dont understand that i do not live my life for a fucking job, and i will quit for this trip if they cant understand that.
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