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My life sucks, I'm tired of it all, Things keep getting worse and theres just about no way to fix them. I have too many faults and not enough time to fix them or even try to deal with them anymore. My life hasn't been bright lights and lolly pops, Is been hard to get through you try so hard one day just to find out you gotta do it all over again the next. I was hopeing to get some sleep but after the email i jsut recieved from my brother it will be very hard to sleep i may spend hours just remembering what he said he saw in me and my life, Some stuff true and some not so true. He's right in alot of the things he said, But i felt attacked by that email and somewhat hurt. Its times like these i almost feel like falling out of church and just liveing my life the way i want becomeing like my father, But i don't think i could do that again. I understand i have faults and i'm doing my best to fix these problems but being reminded of it all the time makes me wanna just leave my life behind and start over someplace where no one knows the real me and i can rebuild my life and start liveing my life for the lord once again, However i can't do that i need to repair my life here in cleveland, I need to get right with the Lord, I need to get right with my family and i need to get right with myself