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OMG I can't stop listening to that song. My horoscope said that a song would hit me today and make me a complete wreck. I think this is it.
I completely just hit the bottom and can't pull myself back together.
I only have a certain amount of time until class so I need to pull it up before then.
I'm just sitting here crying, I'm thinking about my mom and death and sickness. Its crazy!
I do miss my mother terribly. I wish there was something I could do. I wish they would move up here a little closer so I could see them more often, its so hard to live without my parents.
I'm finally becoming dependant on my parents, unlike high school and before when I hated the thought. I truely do miss the interaction I have with my parents. I connect so close with them now that I've stepped up and shown them I am and adult and have my own life. I'm no longer rebellious and I long for structure and rules and boundries. God if only they knew how much they meant to me and still mean more to me than ever. God tears stream down my face but its hard to tell if they are tears of sadness or of joy.
Anyway, new song... I'm sure I'll come back to it.
I applied for yet again two more state jobs and two MSU jobs. I need to hear something for someone soon. Tomorrow I am going to ride my bike down to Kroger and see whats up there, get the email address for Tmobile so I can cancel my phone.
PS My phone doesn't work right now, and all I have is voicemail so leave a message with your number so I can have it when I get a new phone. I lost ALL my numbers. Which SUCKS ASS!! I wish I could stay with a company for more than a year.
Classes are alright, I should get ready for it and prepare, study whatever. I need to print things off and get that shit ready. Anyway, much love and peace, a little sadness keeps things together.
and the angel opens her eyes.....
I completely just hit the bottom and can't pull myself back together.
I only have a certain amount of time until class so I need to pull it up before then.
I'm just sitting here crying, I'm thinking about my mom and death and sickness. Its crazy!
I do miss my mother terribly. I wish there was something I could do. I wish they would move up here a little closer so I could see them more often, its so hard to live without my parents.
I'm finally becoming dependant on my parents, unlike high school and before when I hated the thought. I truely do miss the interaction I have with my parents. I connect so close with them now that I've stepped up and shown them I am and adult and have my own life. I'm no longer rebellious and I long for structure and rules and boundries. God if only they knew how much they meant to me and still mean more to me than ever. God tears stream down my face but its hard to tell if they are tears of sadness or of joy.
Anyway, new song... I'm sure I'll come back to it.
I applied for yet again two more state jobs and two MSU jobs. I need to hear something for someone soon. Tomorrow I am going to ride my bike down to Kroger and see whats up there, get the email address for Tmobile so I can cancel my phone.
PS My phone doesn't work right now, and all I have is voicemail so leave a message with your number so I can have it when I get a new phone. I lost ALL my numbers. Which SUCKS ASS!! I wish I could stay with a company for more than a year.
Classes are alright, I should get ready for it and prepare, study whatever. I need to print things off and get that shit ready. Anyway, much love and peace, a little sadness keeps things together.
and the angel opens her eyes.....