I'm not okay
I know I haven't LJ'ed in forever... but let me just put out there that the last five days of my life have been sheer hell.
It started with hope, all things truly morale destroying start with hope, don't they?
Basically I was hyper excited to get a night off from rehersal, and to have two days with no "real" responsibility... then I caught the super flu.
I won't describe how, even though it's entertaining, just because I don't want to put the effort forward.
I spent Friday evening to basically this morning (Wednesday) in my bed praying for death or asprin, sometimes both. My "wonderful" two days of nothing were eaten by the monster of 22 hours of sleep a day plus pain. This just frustrated me, it was when the next several days, when I NEEDED to do things that started to hurt.
Missed Ishman, missed later rehersals, missed more classes... got jerked around by the unt health center whose earliest appointment available was today, when it would do me no good. BEST PART, I GOT A FREAKING EAR INFECTION WHILE SICK. Didn't realize it of course till today, when walking around attempting to go to class got me incredibly dizzy.
Health center won't see me till friday. I have pounding headaches.... am incredibly behind in Makeup and only getting further behind because of this. Spent literally 6-7 hours working on makeup work... through pounding headaches... finally broke down to take a asprin (it's PM kind, so it would knock me out) BUT I COULDN'T FIND IT. Not anyones fault, it just got put away somewhere because I left it out, I found it about twenty minutes later.
I also spilt water all over my best 2 renderings I was working on.
I'm nowhere near done on what I need to be doing
I'm just wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy not doing great.
Not like I won't survive... I just hate it all right now.
Oh forgot, the plastic undercarrage/chassie thingie on my front right wheel totally is missing two bolts and is not dragging on the ground. SWEET!
The best thing (and I stress that this is the best thing) that has happened to me in the last week and half was having to turn down a 800 dollar job from eclipse to drive down to Austin. I hated myself when I had to say now, as it is almost three months rent for doing nothing and having a good time... but I'm glad I had to say no... because I'd hate myself even more.
It's kinda sad when turning down a f'ing huge pile of money for doing something cool is the best thing to happen to a person.
*Hates life*
I'm goinging to go complain myself to sleep. Talk to you all later.
It started with hope, all things truly morale destroying start with hope, don't they?
Basically I was hyper excited to get a night off from rehersal, and to have two days with no "real" responsibility... then I caught the super flu.
I won't describe how, even though it's entertaining, just because I don't want to put the effort forward.
I spent Friday evening to basically this morning (Wednesday) in my bed praying for death or asprin, sometimes both. My "wonderful" two days of nothing were eaten by the monster of 22 hours of sleep a day plus pain. This just frustrated me, it was when the next several days, when I NEEDED to do things that started to hurt.
Missed Ishman, missed later rehersals, missed more classes... got jerked around by the unt health center whose earliest appointment available was today, when it would do me no good. BEST PART, I GOT A FREAKING EAR INFECTION WHILE SICK. Didn't realize it of course till today, when walking around attempting to go to class got me incredibly dizzy.
Health center won't see me till friday. I have pounding headaches.... am incredibly behind in Makeup and only getting further behind because of this. Spent literally 6-7 hours working on makeup work... through pounding headaches... finally broke down to take a asprin (it's PM kind, so it would knock me out) BUT I COULDN'T FIND IT. Not anyones fault, it just got put away somewhere because I left it out, I found it about twenty minutes later.
I also spilt water all over my best 2 renderings I was working on.
I'm nowhere near done on what I need to be doing
I'm just wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy not doing great.
Not like I won't survive... I just hate it all right now.
Oh forgot, the plastic undercarrage/chassie thingie on my front right wheel totally is missing two bolts and is not dragging on the ground. SWEET!
The best thing (and I stress that this is the best thing) that has happened to me in the last week and half was having to turn down a 800 dollar job from eclipse to drive down to Austin. I hated myself when I had to say now, as it is almost three months rent for doing nothing and having a good time... but I'm glad I had to say no... because I'd hate myself even more.
It's kinda sad when turning down a f'ing huge pile of money for doing something cool is the best thing to happen to a person.
*Hates life*
I'm goinging to go complain myself to sleep. Talk to you all later.