I need to let it all out
Ok, i don't know what i'm feeling right now. I think it's stress, but i'm not enirely sure. I have an english essay due Wed., and I couldn't think of a topic until last night at like 8:00. The problem is that it's about my dad and how he gets mad about little stuff. Only i had to make some adjustments that weren't entirely true about it. What if he reads it? How will that make me look?
I think another reason why I'm stressed is becasue i'm jealous of my brother. Writing comes so easy to him and is so hard for me. I wish I could express myself through writing like I can through music, but I can't. Everything seems so difficult and overwhelming. I can't handle it. Why does everything have to be soo hard? Why? why? oh woe is me :(
See, now this is expressive writing. I can write about what im feeling a lot easier. Maybe its just the topic thats making me alll stressed out. Either that or its the bunch of quizzes and tests that i have to study for. Chris was right, its no fun being smart.
I need someone to talk to right now. I need to tell someone this directly because i can't just keep this to myself. The person who I want to talk to is supposofly away, but im not entirely sure. Why do all the understanding, and type of people to talk to have to be girls? It's a gift that they have I guess. amoung many others.
I'm nt sure if I'm done writing yet, so I'll just finish this entry and if I need to do another, I will.