O Fortuna, velut Luna, statu variabilis.....amen
boy do i seem to fuck everything up. I don't know why i even bother sometimes. I haven't been like this before, but suddenly i've become this total ass. Nothing seems to go right. When i try to be funny, people cry, when i laugh, they get depressed, when i'm sad, it just makes it all worse, and when i'm like this, i begin to doubt a purpose for anything. Sure, it's normal tennage shit, but it's MY teenage shit. I suppose that is what everyone thinks tho...fuck, there i go again, being conformist to the stereotypes placed on my head. Am i even an individual anymore? Since i'm going to hell, might as well break away from the mold...but the mold is too perfect, so you can't get abnormality out of it. at least in my mold. Si tout le monde il est beau et merveilleux, pourquoi pleure-t-il? Je ne sais pas. Je souhaite que j'aie su, alors peut-être tous seraient bien. Mais, c'est la vie. will you all ever forgive me for my stupidity? i've fucked too many of you over. I'm just a wanna be, a cankerblossom, a fucking manipulative asshole....i know it is alot to ask....but i do need you all.....i just don't know if you need me.