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im sitting here on a gorgeous listening to beautiful music (Rimsky-korsakov - Scherzo Fantastique) and im in a lovely mood.
went out last night, had a blast. everything was just good and im in a fabulous mood today. dont know why, probably remenants of the chemicals from last night
moving to melbourne has been the best change. i needed to do it. even though things with joel fell apart it was for the best. and it gave me the opportnity to be where i am now.
i cant believe its august already. this year has been insane. everything has just gone so fast. so much has happened. so much good, the general bad, but atm i am happy with everything. which isnt something id usually say. but things down here are good
its been challenging. i didnt know how i would react to such a massive change. at first it was negatively, there was talk of going home blah blah. but i think what compounded onto that was the issues with joel. and as horrible as it might be to say, the happiest time i have had here was once we broke up. i finally got to assert myself as me, not as joels boyfriend. ive started to form real friendships with people. work has been great. promoted within 2 months of being here with another promotion hopefully in the next 3 or 4 months.
Im just happy i stuck it out. it would have been so easy for me to run home. back to brisbane. back to what i thought was glamour. what i thought was popularity. what i thought was some kind of high life. now i can look back and see what it really is
so many more doors have opened up for me here. im no longer stuck in such a small world. my goals are returning. my outlook on my life is improving. the change has been good and i can finally take control of things around me
i do miss brisbane though. i do miss my little world. going out and feeling the celebrity, as fake and lame as it was. i miss my friends, real and fake. but i think that is simply a comfort thing.
overall, things are on the up and up. Which i think i deserve
went out last night, had a blast. everything was just good and im in a fabulous mood today. dont know why, probably remenants of the chemicals from last night
moving to melbourne has been the best change. i needed to do it. even though things with joel fell apart it was for the best. and it gave me the opportnity to be where i am now.
i cant believe its august already. this year has been insane. everything has just gone so fast. so much has happened. so much good, the general bad, but atm i am happy with everything. which isnt something id usually say. but things down here are good
its been challenging. i didnt know how i would react to such a massive change. at first it was negatively, there was talk of going home blah blah. but i think what compounded onto that was the issues with joel. and as horrible as it might be to say, the happiest time i have had here was once we broke up. i finally got to assert myself as me, not as joels boyfriend. ive started to form real friendships with people. work has been great. promoted within 2 months of being here with another promotion hopefully in the next 3 or 4 months.
Im just happy i stuck it out. it would have been so easy for me to run home. back to brisbane. back to what i thought was glamour. what i thought was popularity. what i thought was some kind of high life. now i can look back and see what it really is
so many more doors have opened up for me here. im no longer stuck in such a small world. my goals are returning. my outlook on my life is improving. the change has been good and i can finally take control of things around me
i do miss brisbane though. i do miss my little world. going out and feeling the celebrity, as fake and lame as it was. i miss my friends, real and fake. but i think that is simply a comfort thing.
overall, things are on the up and up. Which i think i deserve