birthday is going well

[tim_9]

Well today is my birthday but it hasnt gone to well for me really.
I realized today that the girl i like doesnt like me she like one of my friends. But im fine with that. But it jsut seems that with the one girl who liked me i got to hate me isnt that just my luck. I mean i still like telena but if she doesnt like me what the use in trying to get her to like me when i know that she doesnt or prob never will.
Ive been real depressed today. I know that i should be happy and all but im really not right now. Im still not happy with myself. I guess im just lonely when i see all of my freinds with their girls i get all lonely. IM sure that ill still be this wasy on christmas. I just thought that this year i might not be lonely like ive been for a long time. Im tired of feeling left out. Everyone else goes and hangs out with all of their friends or goes on dates and im always stuck at home. I know i should be happy for all of my friends for having fun and having girlfriends but im really not im jealous of them.
Well that good enough for now but i need to stop updating so much.