the first two weeks were great...
thinking about what things are like and what they actually are really fill my mind a lot these days. good thing i've kept myself busy with certain things. i really don't have the best luck though... that is one of my problems. some days i feel really awesome about everything that is going on, and other days i probably think way too much about some stuff. for example; why haven't you called me back? why is it that i try to make plans with you and it seems like it is the last thing in the world you would want to do, or why have i been trying so hard to make this work when we all know it isn't. how about i like you, you're cute, but i could never picture you and i together, but i know for a fact that if i wanted it i could have it. none of these are cool thoughts at all. there is one person i really think that i could be happy with right now. someone i kind of saw for a little bit, but it never amounted to anything. (something got in the way). it could be pretty cool right now, but who knows. i try to hard and it really never works out. i'm finally going to give up. (at least that is what i keep telling myself).
not sure what is going to happen for new years. you know how you always have someone to kiss when the clock strikes 12 and 2008 barges it's way into our lives? i keep thinking; who is going to be my kiss this year? i really haven't had a new years kiss since rocki. all i remember is her and i going to sleep at like 8 'o clock and waking up and it was like 3 in the morning and we totally missed new years. that was a fun time in my life. i was actually thinking that was a solid relationship at the time i was in it. boy did rocki and i crash and burn quickly. i always think of if there wasn't all of the "he said-she said" things going around that it might have been different. i was a liar too, so that probably wasn't the best thing for us.
have at thee!
rough night. stupid girls and their even stupider boyfriends. not my favorite. jessica is engaged. boy that happened quickly. lisa is dating some dumb prick. kate has a new guy. wow, i could go on with this list.
i need to start fresh. meet some new people. go on some first dates, not just a first date in a long time... new sounds so good. someday...
someday...
not sure what is going to happen for new years. you know how you always have someone to kiss when the clock strikes 12 and 2008 barges it's way into our lives? i keep thinking; who is going to be my kiss this year? i really haven't had a new years kiss since rocki. all i remember is her and i going to sleep at like 8 'o clock and waking up and it was like 3 in the morning and we totally missed new years. that was a fun time in my life. i was actually thinking that was a solid relationship at the time i was in it. boy did rocki and i crash and burn quickly. i always think of if there wasn't all of the "he said-she said" things going around that it might have been different. i was a liar too, so that probably wasn't the best thing for us.
have at thee!
rough night. stupid girls and their even stupider boyfriends. not my favorite. jessica is engaged. boy that happened quickly. lisa is dating some dumb prick. kate has a new guy. wow, i could go on with this list.
i need to start fresh. meet some new people. go on some first dates, not just a first date in a long time... new sounds so good. someday...
someday...