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[tiltedaxis420]

i miss her so bad.

but im not supposed to let her know.

im not supposed to let anyone know.

i miss her so fucking bad.

i have these words and anyone.

i just want her.

im have every reason to be happy, really i do...trust me I do.

my life has only begun and i am alive

i am alone, so what.

im not supposed to let her know.

but i know everything

except for how i feel about anything

which is obviously a big fat lie.

depression must be used as an

alternative fuel source

because im not taking anything

with a chemical combination.

so i wish myself goodluck

and know that since i have no choice but to survive...

well i dont have a choice so why explain.

i know its her mistake, its not a cocky thing to say.

or i dont mean it like that.

its her choice,

goodbye best friend, goodbye friend, goodbye lover, goodbye love

and believe me, those arent the things I said.

it just hurts...every fucking second. thats not fair.

how am i supposed to get better when it hurts every fucking second.

i dont drink liqueor, i dont take pills, i dont forget to remember.

thats whats wrong i wonder....