I need to buy cat food
So this weekend wasn't HORRIABLE, but it certainly wasn't what I wanted. I feel like I've become some incredibly boring person lately. I used to not be like this, I have no idea what's come over me. It's almost like I've lost the will to have fun. All I have left to hang on is some bitching and moaning,...and that's just not me. For some reason (and I have some ideas) I've become this bitter person. I talked to Nadya yesterday,...and I really miss her. She was like the one friend where we could talk and talk about the dumbest shit and it would be hilarious. I mean we talked for the whole 12 hours to Kansas and had enough to say to cover the 5 days I was there. I guess sometimes I censor myself because I don't want the other person to think I'm lame/boring/stupid. Because the fact of the matter is I AM a super dork. I'm a smart girl, but I love to make people laugh by making the dumbest jokes imaginable. Just not everyone shares this type of humor and that fact stops me, plus the fact I don't want to come across as unintelligent. I'm not your average brain dead girl, I do a lot of deep thinking, I just rarely share it with anyone. I just can't knock this feeling of unhappiness. I'm just trying to cope with the fact that THIS is all life has to offer. I used to think it was going to be more exciting and it's just depressing to get over the fact that it's nothing more than mundane walk in a very lonely park. Don't get me wrong,..I'm not a depressed person, this is just a dissappointing time in my life, and for some reason it won't go away.