oh so very sad

[tiltbiffy]

I feel the most sad I have felt in a long time. I don't know what is quite wrong with me, it just hit like a ton of bricks at work.I saw Jeff yesterday, which was cool, although half of me thinks seeing him makes things worse for me. Only because I know he doesn't want what I want out of this whole thing. I mean can it even be considered a casual relationship if you only see someone like once a month??? I just hate it because I really enjoy being around him, but it's not good for me to fall for someone that has no inclinaton to fall back.

Things That Are Making Me Cry Because Of Frustration/Sadness:
1)Jeff
2)Work
3)Being alone/not getting affection
4)Not getting any
5)Loneliness
6)Being poor

Sometimes I hate being me.