I feel...
..so disgusting..
I've gained a few lbs in the past few weeks. I'm 108 now, and I feel so fat and disgusting.
I was getting x-rays done yesterday, because my back has been giving me problems recently. The X-ray tech made a few comments about my weight.
"Thin and healthy is good, but you're too thin"
"There is nothing to your stomach"
I guess you could say it triggered me like mad... I woke up last night feeling my right arm frantically.. It felt so fat and gross, which made me feel like I wanted to end life right then.
I don't know what to do, because I can't handle life anymore. I can't go on anymore. All I want in life now is to be able to control what goes in me, and see results from it.
I've gained a few lbs in the past few weeks. I'm 108 now, and I feel so fat and disgusting.
I was getting x-rays done yesterday, because my back has been giving me problems recently. The X-ray tech made a few comments about my weight.
"Thin and healthy is good, but you're too thin"
"There is nothing to your stomach"
I guess you could say it triggered me like mad... I woke up last night feeling my right arm frantically.. It felt so fat and gross, which made me feel like I wanted to end life right then.
I don't know what to do, because I can't handle life anymore. I can't go on anymore. All I want in life now is to be able to control what goes in me, and see results from it.