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Some time ago I realized that all of the people I surround myself with are eerily similar to me. I enjoy these friends of mine, but I found myself in a very unproductive vicious cycle where nothing is learned, and neuroses are fed. Like I was just digging myself deeper and deeper into this introspective, over-intellectualized hole of thought that led to nowhere. I am changing this, and the shift in perspective has been a much needed breath of fresh air. The last few months I had been looking for a way out of this, a way to grow. Some door that I could wedge my foot into at the back of what seemed like a dead end hallway. I think I found it. I'm a little scared as to where it leads, but I can't help but follow it. In the past, my biggest enemy has always been myself and my own negativity, so I'm doing my best to relax and enjoy the ride. Hope is something I haven't felt in a long time. I can't say I don't like it.