probably the last update of the summer...
I seriously cannot believe that I move out in thirteen days. That I have two books and two papers to finish, that I have CA (community assistant) training, that I have to make posters and door decorations for fifty kids and attend meeting after meeting after meeting, that I have a thesis to work on all before school starts. I hate that I've procrastinated this much because I said I wouldn't do that again this year, that I'd actually be organized and thorough and detailed and less-stressed (who am I kidding? I'll be more stressed than ever--twenty credits, playing mom to fifty kids [plus an entire freshman complex], working, and volunteering about three hours a week) than last year. I just want so much for this year to be different and better than last year. Last school year was great--starting college, getting away from home, meeting new people, new friends, new experiences...so many new experiences. I definitely do not need to be as wild as I was (coming from a Tollefson I know that's hard to imagine) but I doubt I'll change in that regard. Especially with my new China friends. Partying is what we do. I guess what I'm saying is that I'm scared for this year to start but extremely ready to get out of my house and away from my mother's suffocating grasp (I love her more than I can say, but her clinging to me because Megan is moving to Oklahoma only pushes me farther and farther away) and living my life again. Everyone says that summer is when you starting "living," but for me, it's the school year. It's more real than anything I've done this summer--go to China, meet amazing friends and quite an amazing guy, sleep a ton, read books I want to read and not have to read, swim a lot, go to the gym everyday, be lazy, go to Disneyland...school is life for me. No questions about it. It's where I have my work, my school, and my "play". For me, Tempe is just as much home as my family's home in Mesa is. I've grown up more this past year than...shit...my lifetime, and coming from me (always on the mature-end for my age-range) that says a lot. It'll be nice to "be on my own" again and away from my continually bickering mother and sister.
One nice "everyone is leaving" thing is that my family and I are going camping this weekend--kind of one last hurrah as a family. We're going up to Greer and going to work on our land up there...thing is, we've got some mistletoe in some of our trees. It just.so.happens. that Barney's family owns a nursery up in Pinetop. And they're one of the only nurseries in the state to sell that powder that makes mistletoe fall out of trees...and of course we just happen to pass through Pinetop on the way up to Greer. So the whole damn Tollefson clan gets to meet and grill the boy for the first time while he's at work. Fun...
One nice "everyone is leaving" thing is that my family and I are going camping this weekend--kind of one last hurrah as a family. We're going up to Greer and going to work on our land up there...thing is, we've got some mistletoe in some of our trees. It just.so.happens. that Barney's family owns a nursery up in Pinetop. And they're one of the only nurseries in the state to sell that powder that makes mistletoe fall out of trees...and of course we just happen to pass through Pinetop on the way up to Greer. So the whole damn Tollefson clan gets to meet and grill the boy for the first time while he's at work. Fun...