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It's been awhile. Awhile for me, at least. While I can't say that my life is perfect, I'm becoming more content with it everyday- and that *might* just have something to do with me only having one more midterm/ridiculously huge assignment to struggle through. It's a good feeling just being able to spend a Saturday night by myself. Yes, there was a football game and I'm such a man that I love going, but it just wasn't worth it today. I've got work to do and sometimes I really just need to be alone. For some reason, that's a hard concept for people to grasp: being alone and enjoying it. I'm definitely not antisocial, but it's such a relief to not constantly be worrying about how I look (though I've given up trying to look even somewhat decent recently) and what witty thing I should say next to keep people interested and the stress of just having to constantly deal with other people's issues instead of my own. Maybe that's selfish but really, who's going to look out for me *but* me?
I think I need to make a decision here soon. I should make it soon. It's starting to get difficult because I'm being torn so many different directions but it's so hard because each option is just as appealing as the others, yet for completely different reasons.
And while this seems completely new, it's been something I've been thinking about for a while and..I think I'm going to study abroad this summer. To China. For six weeks. And earn six honors credit hours in the process. It's so much money but honestly, it's so goddamn worth it. When else in my life will I be able to spend six weeks in China with a group of amazing people, creating life changing memories? Plus, if/when I go next summer, I'd be able to go visit the Olympic Village because, yeah, we'd be there during the Olympics. How amazing would that be? AH! I'm so excited.
It's changing- some things for the worse and some for the better- yet I can't help but be appreciative that something, anything, is happening rather than that stagnant state I was in beforehand. Any change is welcome.
I think I need to make a decision here soon. I should make it soon. It's starting to get difficult because I'm being torn so many different directions but it's so hard because each option is just as appealing as the others, yet for completely different reasons.
And while this seems completely new, it's been something I've been thinking about for a while and..I think I'm going to study abroad this summer. To China. For six weeks. And earn six honors credit hours in the process. It's so much money but honestly, it's so goddamn worth it. When else in my life will I be able to spend six weeks in China with a group of amazing people, creating life changing memories? Plus, if/when I go next summer, I'd be able to go visit the Olympic Village because, yeah, we'd be there during the Olympics. How amazing would that be? AH! I'm so excited.
It's changing- some things for the worse and some for the better- yet I can't help but be appreciative that something, anything, is happening rather than that stagnant state I was in beforehand. Any change is welcome.