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So I've officially survived my first week and weekend of college and I've got a ton of homework, sore muscles, and bruises to show for it (I was at Camp Carey- for the business college- this weekend). I thought that I'd either really love or hate college and right now, I'm somewhere in between and I'm alright with that for now. Obviously there's a part of me that wishes I could say "Like, oh em gee, ASU is my very favoritest place on earth!" (I can't really help but say that in an airhead-ish way [I *am* a bitch, remember]) but I'm able to recognize that this is only one stage in my life and should therefore make it amazing while I'm here, but not allow it to be the highlight of my entire life. I always scorned those kids that said "High school is the best time of your life, so make the most of it" because I never had that consistent amount of fun, of friends, of just a generally good life so I wanted to believe that college would be better. Yes, college is better, a lot better actually, but I don't want it to be the best. I want to have things to live for beyond frat parties and hooking up with guys- though I do definitely enjoy that every now and then. I don't know. I'm just trying to do the oh-so cliche thing of "finding myself" in college and yeah, it's only been a week so what's the point of rushing it, but why wait until it's too late to do anything about it? Agh...it's just kind of hard- everything's happening so fast but nothing's really happening at all...if that makes any sense.