another death.
Im sick of ppl I love dying. I know that in a lot of ways Im lucky, that I have a big family or that we live in america and are lives arent threatened every day. But why do ppl that I love have to keep dying. When my aunt called and told me, I had to check my phone to make sure she had really called me and that I hadnt imagined it. And instead of thinking omg my cousin chris is dead, whats going to happen to sky and alexa [his daughters] the first thing that came to my head was another funeral, Im so sick of them. How wrong is that? I still cant believe he died though, I half expect him to show up. But he's not going to. He overdosed, and there were like 5 empty bottles in the house. So the cops questioned ashley, his girlfriend. I guess they thought she might have known that he took the pills and left him there or something. I don't think she would do anything like that though, she was in love with him and wanted him to be a responsible father. But I guess anything is possible, and that after waiting so long people do grow restless. She's gone a bit crazy though, so we're watching sky. I watched her today while my aunt nancy and everyone told the rest of the family and made arrangments for the funeral. The showing is thursday, and friday is the funeral. They're going to cremate him and then bury the urn at his fathers feet. I don't see why it needs to be at his feet, not his chest. But no one else seemed to care. hm my stomach hurts. I hate how it'll start hurting if Im upset or depressed.
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