the jigsaw puzzle got jumbled up in the box, im trying to put it back together
yesterday my friend tried to convince me that i should try at least one cigarette. and now, in reality, trying it wouldn't have been that big of a deal... its not like i would have started smoking on a regular basis or ne thing like that. and i mean i've smoked weed before but there's something about cigarettes that i always determined i would never try them ever. even though it was hardly a big deal i still refused and you know wat? it felt really good to finally stick up for something/ myself for the first time in a long time. i feel like somewhere along the way i've kind of lost track of what i believe in and who i am (as totally lame and corny as that sounds) and i feel like i need to start figuring it out again. i really need to refocus... i started to day by cleaning my room and putting things in order. maybe if i start by putting things in order on the outside it'll do something for how im feelin.