woah way past my bed time for being grounded!
so i cleared it up whether i was ready or not... i talked with NCHS guy and we both said that we weren't ourselves that night and the next time we hang out will be in a group of ppl.
Meanwhie, i talked with Jem(Jeremy). it started out with me feeling bad and mad about that ^^^^ issue. and if i was going to get mad at him for bringing thing up, then so be it. have it brought up when it doesn't matter if i get mad. That's no where near where our convo went. we cleared up some things, he expressed how he felt, and i told him what i had to do so long ago. i dont' think he should fell this bad about it, but he really cares about her, and he gave so much for their relationship. and i had felt so immature for ignoring him. but i felt like i couldn't talk to him bc every time i saw him, my stomach would twist and get queasy, i would be so disgusted to see him. but it was immature and something had to be said.....
i shouldn't have brough it up at my convenience, but it was still bugging me after all this time.
that's all now.
Meanwhie, i talked with Jem(Jeremy). it started out with me feeling bad and mad about that ^^^^ issue. and if i was going to get mad at him for bringing thing up, then so be it. have it brought up when it doesn't matter if i get mad. That's no where near where our convo went. we cleared up some things, he expressed how he felt, and i told him what i had to do so long ago. i dont' think he should fell this bad about it, but he really cares about her, and he gave so much for their relationship. and i had felt so immature for ignoring him. but i felt like i couldn't talk to him bc every time i saw him, my stomach would twist and get queasy, i would be so disgusted to see him. but it was immature and something had to be said.....
i shouldn't have brough it up at my convenience, but it was still bugging me after all this time.
that's all now.