Where to start....
I've been feeling weird lately.... I don't know why.... I think it's mostly because of my relationship with my boyfriend...
I do feel a bit better.... we talked last night for a long time... I didn't go to sleep til like 8.30 this morning... I really hope things will be ok between us...
**sigh**
I have such a hard explaining how i feel... it's so complicated... why can't things be simple for me...
like I know ever since Mike and I broke up I catch myself perposely seting up ways for boyfriends to break up with me... and I feel like I'm going to do this with Alan... and I don't want to... I don't want us to break up... not yet anyway.... I'm still having fun.... I just don't know how to stop it... like now I'm being extra careful... and that i think has me over thinking... so then I feel weird...
BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyways here's a recent pic of me from Saturday night when i was waiting for my sister and her friends to go out to the club...
I do feel a bit better.... we talked last night for a long time... I didn't go to sleep til like 8.30 this morning... I really hope things will be ok between us...
**sigh**
I have such a hard explaining how i feel... it's so complicated... why can't things be simple for me...
like I know ever since Mike and I broke up I catch myself perposely seting up ways for boyfriends to break up with me... and I feel like I'm going to do this with Alan... and I don't want to... I don't want us to break up... not yet anyway.... I'm still having fun.... I just don't know how to stop it... like now I'm being extra careful... and that i think has me over thinking... so then I feel weird...
BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyways here's a recent pic of me from Saturday night when i was waiting for my sister and her friends to go out to the club...