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So I just spent the past hour or so finding different flash animations of the Kama Sutra online, and reading Wiki's list of sexual positions. Sweet! :o) Now I miss Joe like whoa, but it'll be ok. In a couple weeks, I live close enough to see him every.single.day! Hopefully he won't get sick of me, lol. Or me of him. Or something.
My girl Stephanie talked me through some stuff about me and Joe that had been on my mind. We spent three hours at Dos Reales (excellent Mexican place near my house, hella cheap but awesome food). She helped me figure out exactly what I was thinking, why it was causing problems, and how to talk to Joe about it. So thank, Stephanie! :oD She's a great friend, I'm bummed that I only got to know her as I'm moving away. But now I have the balls to tell Joe what's going on and that's a good thing.
Most of the problems I've had with the relationship in the past have been the result of something being on my mind and my own inability to talk to him about it. Thinking back, that's been a big issue with me, causing me a lot of stress and unhappiness in the relationship. I don't want him to think I'm this whiny weirdo bitch lady who demands so much of him, because he'll run away from that. Hell, so would I! So I don't want to be that person. But then something worms its way into my mind and I just can't shake it.
When he was here last weekend, I didn't bring up the whole other-girl-crush thing. I think I'll save that one for after we get back to Lafayette, unless it becoms a problem before that (like on our vacation together). I will bring up the sexual expectation thing over the vacation, when we've got some alone down-time to talk about stuff in a setting that definitely can not lead to canoodling. I think it will be less restrictive that way and more constructive for our relationship. :o)
Right now, I'm hella tired, but I am going to force myself to finish packing up all of my kitchen stuff and reorganize my packed crates before I can watch porn go to bed.
Oh, and PS - I finally updated my Winamp playlist to include a much much much bigger selection of my music, so maybe my "Current Music" list won't be so repetitive. ;o)
My girl Stephanie talked me through some stuff about me and Joe that had been on my mind. We spent three hours at Dos Reales (excellent Mexican place near my house, hella cheap but awesome food). She helped me figure out exactly what I was thinking, why it was causing problems, and how to talk to Joe about it. So thank, Stephanie! :oD She's a great friend, I'm bummed that I only got to know her as I'm moving away. But now I have the balls to tell Joe what's going on and that's a good thing.
Most of the problems I've had with the relationship in the past have been the result of something being on my mind and my own inability to talk to him about it. Thinking back, that's been a big issue with me, causing me a lot of stress and unhappiness in the relationship. I don't want him to think I'm this whiny weirdo bitch lady who demands so much of him, because he'll run away from that. Hell, so would I! So I don't want to be that person. But then something worms its way into my mind and I just can't shake it.
When he was here last weekend, I didn't bring up the whole other-girl-crush thing. I think I'll save that one for after we get back to Lafayette, unless it becoms a problem before that (like on our vacation together). I will bring up the sexual expectation thing over the vacation, when we've got some alone down-time to talk about stuff in a setting that definitely can not lead to canoodling. I think it will be less restrictive that way and more constructive for our relationship. :o)
Right now, I'm hella tired, but I am going to force myself to finish packing up all of my kitchen stuff and reorganize my packed crates before I can watch porn go to bed.
Oh, and PS - I finally updated my Winamp playlist to include a much much much bigger selection of my music, so maybe my "Current Music" list won't be so repetitive. ;o)