Dont no what to feel....
So I just read something that made me think.....
Have i totally lost it?! I feel like Ive driven people away. I was so desperate for comfort and someone to listen that I have driven people away. Good going! Im sorry if I have become a bother. I am just going through some very difficult times. I have no idea whats ahead for me. But i do know that Ive begun to see things in a new light. I am worrying about myself these days... only to realize all the shit I have put up with... within myself and others. This year has been a complete slap in the face. Im living life in a cloud... no certainty in anything. I might be clinically depressed! Sometimes I feel so hopeless and confused. I guess thats why this weekend made me smile.
Saturday morning I drove home to pick up Jessie. We had breakfast with my parents. In the afternoon, Sarah, Jessie and I went to plaster funtime.... hey dont laugh, it was pouring out and we were bored..., and went food shopping. After Jessie and I watched "Elf." God that movie makes me laugh so hard....."Ill get it"! (Buddy jumps on xmas tree with star and takes the whole thing down) That night we partied! Caits 19th Bday Bash in 1311! I got to drink with some cool people and we just chilled. Sunday, despite our hangovers and my cold... Jessie, Christine, Pat, and I went to Nashua for some shopping.... I didnt buy anything though!
I realized that life here isnt soo bad. I do like UML and the friends I have made. The clubs Im in are entertaining and lots of fun! I just really wish I can figure out what Im gonna do the rest of my life. Ive narrowed my possible major down to three things:
1) Communications and Philosophy
2) Marketing and Management
3) English/American Studies/Literature---> something on the Literature side!
Wish me luck and Ill update soon!
Thankyou to all those who have put up with me these past few months....
Off to do more homework... the story of college life!