Playing with fire.
I realize that I am playing with fire by flirting very badly with an ex-lover. Nothing has happened physically. And he lives in Dubai so there is no potential for a physical affair. (I realize I am justifying.) He isn't even in town right now. We have been on two "Dates" both of which were amazing. He's smart, funny, has his shit together, is good looking, and can get my panties wet just by looking at me. I really thought I had quashed down my sexual appitite. I haven't been horny in forever. Then he walks in and I'm horny ALL the time. Can't stop thinking about kissing him, I don't remember what it was like, but I want to.
The only thing that happened physically, was this morning when he hugged me goodby he held me really close, pulled my hair back and wispered in my ear, "I rememer how much this got to you, I didn't even have to do anything, just wisper in a low voice and you got all hot and bothered. ... I see that it still works."
And it did. I was all agog all day long.
Luckly (or saddly), he left right after we had coffee this morning for Alabama. He won't be back 'til Fri. or Sat. Then he's back to Dubai on July 3rd.
As luck would have it Sean is being all nice. I didn't realize how much I missed the teasing and flirting (which Sean and I never do and really never did) My fantacies are all about intamacy. Looking into each other's eyes, exploring each other's bodies. Cuddling and chatting long into the night and morning. I am obesessing, I know. I gotta snap out of it before I do something stupid. Maybe him being gone a week will help. *sigh*
The only thing that happened physically, was this morning when he hugged me goodby he held me really close, pulled my hair back and wispered in my ear, "I rememer how much this got to you, I didn't even have to do anything, just wisper in a low voice and you got all hot and bothered. ... I see that it still works."
And it did. I was all agog all day long.
Luckly (or saddly), he left right after we had coffee this morning for Alabama. He won't be back 'til Fri. or Sat. Then he's back to Dubai on July 3rd.
As luck would have it Sean is being all nice. I didn't realize how much I missed the teasing and flirting (which Sean and I never do and really never did) My fantacies are all about intamacy. Looking into each other's eyes, exploring each other's bodies. Cuddling and chatting long into the night and morning. I am obesessing, I know. I gotta snap out of it before I do something stupid. Maybe him being gone a week will help. *sigh*