school worries/rantings and valentine's day!
ok, so I did ... ok on that midterm. B- with the curve. ;-; That's all I have to show for ALL those hours of studying and sacrifice! ;_; I know some of you are thinking "OMG that's a good grade you overachiever, especially for thinking you bombed it so badly," and you're TOTALLY RIGHT in that it could have been way worse, but to completely honest with myself and with my lj-readers, it's one of the lowest grades i've gotten in college and I really really really want to be super competitive for medical school because I don't know if my MCAT score will be anywhere as impressive as my GPA! (I took a practice MCAT after 3 months of training by Kaplan and my score only went up from the initial diagnostic exam score by one point... from 24 [dead average] to 25... and you need to get higher than 30 to be considered "competitive"!! ;_;) Basically, my GPA (3.95 at LMU, 4.0 at UCI) is the one thing I'm really counting on to get me into med school, and if that goes down, then it's like... yeah. :B; On top of that, my roommate got an A on that midterm >((((( *jealous* There actually IS a reason I seem to be lagging behind in everything this quarter... but it will be revealed in due time :> For now, I'll just say - THIS QUARTER has been the busiest, most stressful quarter/semester I have EVER had! o_O;;; is the third year supposed to be this stressful? I've taken heavier loads before... maybe it's just that biochem class... anyways, end school rant :>
VALENTINE'S DAY!!
I love Valentine's day/week!! The reason for that might be obvious... but... I certainly haven't always felt that way.
In elementary school, I had an ok opinion of it. I was never very popular in elementary school - I was one of those kids who had only one or two close friends at a time, if that - so even though teachers try to enforce bringing valentines for every kid in your class, I always had less valentines compared to other kids, and most of the valentines were never really genuine, since many of them were given to me out of necessity. So yeah, definitely one of the many ways valentine's day can be so depressing - it reminds you of your popularity relative to that of others. ^^; However, I never felt TOO bad, because having a day where you receive and are permitted to eat a LOT of candy/treats is never that bad in my eyes, a sentiment I still carry today :> :> :> :> Also, valentine's day always had the potential to be surprising, as it was for me in 4th grade - while everyone in my class was opening their tons of valentines, I reached into my less-full box and pulled out... a humongous white chocolate bear tied to a huge pink card written with the most careful penmanship I had ever seen in anyone my age. It was a love letter from a fellow male classmate! OMG!! I couldn't believe it (and my parents couldn't get enough of it)! Nothing ended up happening though - even though he went through the courage to give that to me, we were both too shy to act on it and barely talked for the rest of the year! ;______; How much I regret being so shy when I think of that! I wonder where he is now... I should definitely facebook him once I finish this entry :> anyways, my point is, things that can be so depressing have the same potential for being so surprising!
In high school, I joined the tons of people who took a cynical approach and deemed it a consumerist holiday. It IS a consumerist holiday, for SURE. It's yet another perfect opportunity to get people to feel compelled to spend a lot of money! But I look back now and I think, why look at it that way? Why not look at it as a nice opportunity/reminder to do something special, and to enjoy a day that's just a bit more special than any other random day? It's so easy to forget about enjoying the things you have - both big and little, and both significant and "insignificant" - and these little holidays (even ones like st. patrick's day and cinco de mayo) help you remember to have fun and appreciate the great friends you have. TRUE I have a Valentine, and having one has probably (no, definitely) brought up my general perspective on just about everything, but that doesn't mean I don't look back and think that it wouldn't have hurt to have a more positive outlook growing up. You don't need just one "Valentine" to be able to have the joy/fun of putting together lots of cute, inexpensive valentines and giving them to people who have made an impact - either big or little - on your life. And once again, a holiday where you're supposed to eat a lot of chocolate can never be that bad!!
VALENTINE'S DAY!!
I love Valentine's day/week!! The reason for that might be obvious... but... I certainly haven't always felt that way.
In elementary school, I had an ok opinion of it. I was never very popular in elementary school - I was one of those kids who had only one or two close friends at a time, if that - so even though teachers try to enforce bringing valentines for every kid in your class, I always had less valentines compared to other kids, and most of the valentines were never really genuine, since many of them were given to me out of necessity. So yeah, definitely one of the many ways valentine's day can be so depressing - it reminds you of your popularity relative to that of others. ^^; However, I never felt TOO bad, because having a day where you receive and are permitted to eat a LOT of candy/treats is never that bad in my eyes, a sentiment I still carry today :> :> :> :> Also, valentine's day always had the potential to be surprising, as it was for me in 4th grade - while everyone in my class was opening their tons of valentines, I reached into my less-full box and pulled out... a humongous white chocolate bear tied to a huge pink card written with the most careful penmanship I had ever seen in anyone my age. It was a love letter from a fellow male classmate! OMG!! I couldn't believe it (and my parents couldn't get enough of it)! Nothing ended up happening though - even though he went through the courage to give that to me, we were both too shy to act on it and barely talked for the rest of the year! ;______; How much I regret being so shy when I think of that! I wonder where he is now... I should definitely facebook him once I finish this entry :> anyways, my point is, things that can be so depressing have the same potential for being so surprising!
In high school, I joined the tons of people who took a cynical approach and deemed it a consumerist holiday. It IS a consumerist holiday, for SURE. It's yet another perfect opportunity to get people to feel compelled to spend a lot of money! But I look back now and I think, why look at it that way? Why not look at it as a nice opportunity/reminder to do something special, and to enjoy a day that's just a bit more special than any other random day? It's so easy to forget about enjoying the things you have - both big and little, and both significant and "insignificant" - and these little holidays (even ones like st. patrick's day and cinco de mayo) help you remember to have fun and appreciate the great friends you have. TRUE I have a Valentine, and having one has probably (no, definitely) brought up my general perspective on just about everything, but that doesn't mean I don't look back and think that it wouldn't have hurt to have a more positive outlook growing up. You don't need just one "Valentine" to be able to have the joy/fun of putting together lots of cute, inexpensive valentines and giving them to people who have made an impact - either big or little - on your life. And once again, a holiday where you're supposed to eat a lot of chocolate can never be that bad!!