Havent wrote in a while lol
Ok well on tues. me n my mom went n picked up blaine n brought him here with out my dad knowin~! that way when hes here my dad will have to talk to him n give him a chance~! well they started talkin, n my dad said that he can come over sometimes n we will go to his games n stuff~! so he came over 2day~! but basicly my dad just asked him all these questions, n blaine told him the truth bout everything, like how hes smoked weed but he dont now, how hes had sex, n stuff like that~! so i'm hopin that after while my dad will get to kno him n like him, n then it will be ok to date him (well it would be ok to not hide it nemore lol)! corys back now, he came back mon. n was at school tues~! n he was all upset cuz i told blaine that i didnt have feelins 4 cory nemore, so cory was all hurt n everything~! n pissed, n i was like i'm sorry would u rather me be like yea i like u when i really dont~! n hes like nooo, i was like shut the hell up then~! then n the letter i wrote it said how i felt bad 4 cory cuz hes hurt, n i still wanna be his friend, but i hope he dont call me sayin that hes sooo sorry n he'll never do it again, n he loves me a lot, n hes gonna kill him self, n i said becuz i really dont need that cuz i cant handle it ryt now~! i have to much stuff goin on~! so then blaine tells him that, n cory calls me, SCREAMIN AT THE TOP OF HIS LUNGS LIKE THIS, SOOO LOUD, I MEAN I'VE NEVER HEARD HIM SCREAM THIS LOUD~! he was just like soo u dont like it when i cry to u huh? i said WUT i never said that, n hes like DONT LIE IT SAID SO IN THAT LETTER, I'M SORRY I'LL NEVER CRY TO U AGAIN~! n hung up lol~! so i called him back, n i was like cory i never said that, n hes like YES U DID DONT EVER F'N CALL ME AGAIN~! (u think i'm gonna listen? hel no) so i call him again lol, n i started screamin then, i mean my throat was killin me~! I SAID CORY I NEVER F'N SAID THAT, I SAID THAT I COULDNT HANDLE U SAYIN UR GONNA KILL UR SELF~! n then he was screamin n then i was screamin~! n i was like STOP TALKIN TO ME LIKE THIS, n i said that he sounded abusive n it scared me cuz it felt like if i was with him ryt then he would of hit me~! so then he stopped screamin n hes like amy i wouldnt hit u~! n then i had to go, then he called back n hes like i'm sorry 4 screamin n being a dick! n i only do it cuz i want u back~! i go yeaaaa cuz thats gonna make me love u~! pssh weirdo~! n hes like i'm not tryin to make u love me nemore, theres no point! n he started askin if i would ever like him again lol~! i said i dunno becuz i'm really happy ryt now~! then all threw school he would try to kiss me behind blaines back, so i told blaine n hes like did u, i said noo lol, n hes like well i wouldnt be mad, i mean i dont want u to but i wouldnt be mad, n i'm like u just want me to say ok so u think its ok 4 u to do it too lol~! n hes like noo i say i wouldnt be mad cuz i kno u wouldnt do it, but i wouldnt break up with u, i'm like y not u idiot i would deserve it lol~! i was like i'd break up with u~! but newayz~!
i'm really glad that u all care about me, it means a lot, but no worries ok, i'm fine i promise~! i'm not gonna do nething crazy, it never even crossed my mind~! n amber i DONT act like its no big deal, i just kno wut i'm thinkin better then ne1 esle, n i kno that i've fine, cuz i'm not doin it nemore, it was one time, n i'm fine~! oh n i'm not ignorein u either, i dont kno wut gave u that idea, but i'm sorry u thought so~! n jenny hun i hope everything goes ok 4 u, i'm really sorry that ur feelin soo sad all the time now, i love u, n i'm here 4 u netime u wanna talk ok~! same 4 all my other friends, like u amber, n nick, n bernie u too if u wanna lol~! i love u all very much n never 4get it~! oh n nick does ur mom believe u yet? cuz ya kno it would be so FUN n awesome if u could stay here lol, not that i want u kicked outta ur house or nething, but man u livin here would be interestin lol~! hey maybe u should 4 fun lol~! well i'll ttyl bye~! i love u all SOOOO MUCH~!