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I was actually going to sit here and write a well thought out entry about whatever shit has been occurring in my life, but then I got interrupted by a friend who is ready to give up.... yes, he wants to give up... that saddens me, because one quality I cherish about him is the fact that he CARES... he cares for people, and that's rare, especially in this town... :( He's "tired of constantly reaching out and getting a handful of crap".... and that breaks my heart.... he's observing that "assholes" are happier so maybe he should just join that school of thought.. I wish there was something I could do.. I could talk to him until the cows come home, but it won't change how he feels unless I find Miss Perfect and send her to his house... Miss Perfect = smart, listens to whatever DJ dance music he makes, offended by George W., NOT FLAKY.... hrm.... I feel really bad for him... I'm going to call him tomorrow.... My heart goes out to you homie....
So, I've been doing some thinking... Not only do I want to live forever, but I wish I could eliminate the need for sleep... I was discussing this with a girl at a diner in North Hollywood one night, and she mentioned that it would be amazing if we could capture sleep in pill form... sell it like a drug... "hey man, can I get 3 hours of sleep?" It could be a form of recreation instead of a necessity... Buy it on the street from a guy with no eyes and wears a dark hood on a rainy night in a dark ally... I'd still want to sleep, but I wouldn't have to DEPEND on it.. that's the kicker... we can't function without sleep... fuck, I've tried all that there is to try to avoid sleeping, and though I'm productive and whatnot, well, I end up being slug-like and comatose for the following week... Not good for my health....
I've been doing research (my aunt who's studying clinical nutrition turned me onto this) and I figure that fasting may help me live longer... Juice fasting, that is... Not this plain water shit.. I have to have a really tight bond with god in order to survive that... but Juice (real homemade juice, not storebought pastuerized shit) can keep me alive, clean out my system, heal me (oh do I need healing, seriously...) and help me strive for better health... I feel so unhealthy, and that will lead me to an early death... blah, whatever...
god, if i could live forever and never need to sleep, I could get so much done.... Help the planet so much, meet so many people (I know I'll get over any social phobias I have eventually, since life will be a perpetual Groundhogs Day (this is a reference to the Bill Murray film in case anyone is wondering)), see so many things, just... $*(@*(#&*@&# I just wish I had more time.. *sigh*.....
Anyhow, that's my rant.. my laundry is done and I have to be at work in the morning... fuck in a... I'm so sick of working a dayjob... :-/
i'm so... tired....
So, I've been doing some thinking... Not only do I want to live forever, but I wish I could eliminate the need for sleep... I was discussing this with a girl at a diner in North Hollywood one night, and she mentioned that it would be amazing if we could capture sleep in pill form... sell it like a drug... "hey man, can I get 3 hours of sleep?" It could be a form of recreation instead of a necessity... Buy it on the street from a guy with no eyes and wears a dark hood on a rainy night in a dark ally... I'd still want to sleep, but I wouldn't have to DEPEND on it.. that's the kicker... we can't function without sleep... fuck, I've tried all that there is to try to avoid sleeping, and though I'm productive and whatnot, well, I end up being slug-like and comatose for the following week... Not good for my health....
I've been doing research (my aunt who's studying clinical nutrition turned me onto this) and I figure that fasting may help me live longer... Juice fasting, that is... Not this plain water shit.. I have to have a really tight bond with god in order to survive that... but Juice (real homemade juice, not storebought pastuerized shit) can keep me alive, clean out my system, heal me (oh do I need healing, seriously...) and help me strive for better health... I feel so unhealthy, and that will lead me to an early death... blah, whatever...
god, if i could live forever and never need to sleep, I could get so much done.... Help the planet so much, meet so many people (I know I'll get over any social phobias I have eventually, since life will be a perpetual Groundhogs Day (this is a reference to the Bill Murray film in case anyone is wondering)), see so many things, just... $*(@*(#&*@&# I just wish I had more time.. *sigh*.....
Anyhow, that's my rant.. my laundry is done and I have to be at work in the morning... fuck in a... I'm so sick of working a dayjob... :-/
i'm so... tired....