Happy but Sad
i know i havent updated in forever but i've been in L.A. all weekend. it was fun. could have been better. it was just me and my dad, that was nice. we got there friday morning and i swam 500 free and 100 fly. did SO bad. gained 6 seconds on 500 and 3 seconds on 100 fly. my coach was really quite understanding cuz i just back into swimming from being sick for a week.
so that day OBVIOUSLY i wasn't gonna make it into finals that day so my dad and i went shopping at a nearby mall. we stood outside in a line into old navy for like a 1/2 hour cuz they had a sale that everything was $5. WHAT A DEAL!!!!! we saw people walking with like 12 BAGS!!!! we walked out with 2 full ones. how often do you see that kinda deal? then we went to our hotel and i fell asleep at around 7:30 that's the earliest i have ever gone to sleep. saturday, i did the 200 fly, gained 3 seconds, and the 200 free and gained 2 seconds BUT i did the 200 free in a relay that same day and dropped a tenth. believe me, considering my situation, dropping is AMAZING. sunday, today i did 200 back, gained 3 seconds, and 100 free in a relay, dropped 7 tenths.ooooo.
i'm really quite sad though, cuz the people i went up to the meet with, i feel as if i view them as friends but they just view me as another person. now for example, i'm am really trying to improve the situation with Jena, i feel as if i'm the only one trying. it's like i want to talk to the more than i do, but their just interested in different stuff than me. i think that they think i'm weird. in this case, i don't like being weird. i feel really left out. AND WHAT REALLY BUGS ME, is that if a got a junior national cut they would probably be more friendly like. sux how ur friendships are based on how fast you are. sometimes i really envy jessie. it's kinda like everybody is so hoovered around her that they don't want to recognize anybody else there. she's an energizer bunny, and if you've seen her swim you know what i mean.
i feel so left out. :( they probably wont even notice i'm gone to costa rica.
or if they do, they don't care.
hell week starts 2morrow. need i say more? 180,000 yards in 2 weeks, 2 practices a day.
12 days til a leave.
i got 3 shots on thursday, my arms are still numb. could barely swim that day. i was practically crying cuz it was hurting so bad. but he (you know who, if you don't ask me) helped me through. it was really comforting. unfortunately he said the only way to relieve the pain is to move it. i still have 2 red arms. he hugged me. i accidentlly hit my arm, that time i was SO close to crying, but it wasn't his fault he didn't realize it was that arm that really hurt.
NOTE TO OTHERS: tetnis hurts, hep A nah, typhoid not even in the slightest bit.
and i just want to note also to the 1st year seniors, the hell week is going to be the hardest hell probably in your life. you feel like you cant breathe and you wanna cry so bad. just thought i'd warn you
luv you guys!!!
so that day OBVIOUSLY i wasn't gonna make it into finals that day so my dad and i went shopping at a nearby mall. we stood outside in a line into old navy for like a 1/2 hour cuz they had a sale that everything was $5. WHAT A DEAL!!!!! we saw people walking with like 12 BAGS!!!! we walked out with 2 full ones. how often do you see that kinda deal? then we went to our hotel and i fell asleep at around 7:30 that's the earliest i have ever gone to sleep. saturday, i did the 200 fly, gained 3 seconds, and the 200 free and gained 2 seconds BUT i did the 200 free in a relay that same day and dropped a tenth. believe me, considering my situation, dropping is AMAZING. sunday, today i did 200 back, gained 3 seconds, and 100 free in a relay, dropped 7 tenths.ooooo.
i'm really quite sad though, cuz the people i went up to the meet with, i feel as if i view them as friends but they just view me as another person. now for example, i'm am really trying to improve the situation with Jena, i feel as if i'm the only one trying. it's like i want to talk to the more than i do, but their just interested in different stuff than me. i think that they think i'm weird. in this case, i don't like being weird. i feel really left out. AND WHAT REALLY BUGS ME, is that if a got a junior national cut they would probably be more friendly like. sux how ur friendships are based on how fast you are. sometimes i really envy jessie. it's kinda like everybody is so hoovered around her that they don't want to recognize anybody else there. she's an energizer bunny, and if you've seen her swim you know what i mean.
i feel so left out. :( they probably wont even notice i'm gone to costa rica.
or if they do, they don't care.
hell week starts 2morrow. need i say more? 180,000 yards in 2 weeks, 2 practices a day.
12 days til a leave.
i got 3 shots on thursday, my arms are still numb. could barely swim that day. i was practically crying cuz it was hurting so bad. but he (you know who, if you don't ask me) helped me through. it was really comforting. unfortunately he said the only way to relieve the pain is to move it. i still have 2 red arms. he hugged me. i accidentlly hit my arm, that time i was SO close to crying, but it wasn't his fault he didn't realize it was that arm that really hurt.
NOTE TO OTHERS: tetnis hurts, hep A nah, typhoid not even in the slightest bit.
and i just want to note also to the 1st year seniors, the hell week is going to be the hardest hell probably in your life. you feel like you cant breathe and you wanna cry so bad. just thought i'd warn you
luv you guys!!!