All My Wishes
-1 is less than zero, but for some reason it still has more substance than nothing.
Although one may not give up on others that does not stop others from giving up on one.
I'm bad at math though. My calculations are quite often off. Especially this particular calculation in which I equated myself; stubbornly. A calculation of which I believed I was the mathematician needed for solving. A calculation that actually works better minus one; myself being the one needing subtracted.
It's strange to feel the struggle finally coming to an end. Especially when it has been a struggle of years spent deeply vested. Yet, in the end, it wasn't until the moment of being nudged out, that the struggle dissipated.
In short; what I had been busy figuring, like an obsessively devoted mathematician, has finally found it's solution and that solution seems to have needed me removed to come to fruition.
Ouch!
As people who believe in magick stress though, "Be specific."
The solution I was solving for is discovered. I never specified I wanted the solution to include me.
I imagine this is how those before me felt. I imagine others will eventually feel the same.
So is the ebb and flow of life. Mathematically beautiful; minus one.
~TigrisSky