Time To Move On
It's strange, this peaceful acceptance of self has brought back so much.
I am inspired again. Like a child I find hope for my aged future.
Sometimes I still think about how much people use to care about me and how easily, and quickly that all changed. Yet it is just a fact of my life now, not some sort of "problem I have." Meaning that I am no longer spending time trying to figure out how to solve anything anymore. They still love me. As do a lot of people throughout my life whom I don't have much contact with.
Fact is this "lack of contact" does not change who I am and what I can do in this world. It instead provides less to cling to; while opening the doors to so much more to explore!
Its weird, but I realize, I have spent a long time focusing on making others dreams come true. With a major focus on making the dream(s) of community come true. Yet I stopped focusing on my goals, my dreams. I even stopped trying new things and taking new paths as I came across them.
I gave all of myself to everything outside of myself and ended up back here with just myself again.
So is life.
I suppose we all go through this from time to time though. Stopping at a train station in life, if you must, and meeting all the people in this new place. Forgetting we have a boarding-pass that can take us so many other places. Sometimes assuming that our boarding-pass has some defined expiration date, or that we have lost our opportunity, and so we simply never get back on that train.
I, however, am riding the rails again!
Mike Brodie, 18
It feels invigorating to be filled with so many ideas. So many things I want to go do. So much of this wide world to explore.
To realize that as I age I have less to lose than I thought.
When you are young you are willing to try more stupid things. Yet as you age, you can get stuck in the routine of that train station. Where you may find yourself not willing to do much of anything to step outside of the routine. Whatever that routine is - be it partying every weekend or sitting at home crafting or even simply raising a family while "slaving 50 years away at something you hate" - life becomes routine.
As if you have somehow become frozen in being.
"People come and people go, some grow young and some grow cold." ~Tom Petty, from: You Don't Know How It Feels
I am growing young and it is fucking fantastic!
No routine for me. No cold robot stuck at the train station wondering what happened to her boarding pass.
I am riding the rails! Boarding pass or not!
Now to find some trains ... choo! choo!
~TigressSky~
I am inspired again. Like a child I find hope for my aged future.
Sometimes I still think about how much people use to care about me and how easily, and quickly that all changed. Yet it is just a fact of my life now, not some sort of "problem I have." Meaning that I am no longer spending time trying to figure out how to solve anything anymore. They still love me. As do a lot of people throughout my life whom I don't have much contact with.
Fact is this "lack of contact" does not change who I am and what I can do in this world. It instead provides less to cling to; while opening the doors to so much more to explore!
Click to viewIts weird, but I realize, I have spent a long time focusing on making others dreams come true. With a major focus on making the dream(s) of community come true. Yet I stopped focusing on my goals, my dreams. I even stopped trying new things and taking new paths as I came across them.
I gave all of myself to everything outside of myself and ended up back here with just myself again.
So is life.
I suppose we all go through this from time to time though. Stopping at a train station in life, if you must, and meeting all the people in this new place. Forgetting we have a boarding-pass that can take us so many other places. Sometimes assuming that our boarding-pass has some defined expiration date, or that we have lost our opportunity, and so we simply never get back on that train.
I, however, am riding the rails again!
Mike Brodie, 18
It feels invigorating to be filled with so many ideas. So many things I want to go do. So much of this wide world to explore.
To realize that as I age I have less to lose than I thought.
When you are young you are willing to try more stupid things. Yet as you age, you can get stuck in the routine of that train station. Where you may find yourself not willing to do much of anything to step outside of the routine. Whatever that routine is - be it partying every weekend or sitting at home crafting or even simply raising a family while "slaving 50 years away at something you hate" - life becomes routine.
As if you have somehow become frozen in being.
"People come and people go, some grow young and some grow cold." ~Tom Petty, from: You Don't Know How It Feels
I am growing young and it is fucking fantastic!
No routine for me. No cold robot stuck at the train station wondering what happened to her boarding pass.
I am riding the rails! Boarding pass or not!
Now to find some trains ... choo! choo!
~TigressSky~