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Things that remind me of my Mother
~TigressSky © June 17, 2010~
Artichokes
Bikers and
Being squished against the passenger door in an overcrowded car
Watching
My little sister cry
And my stepmom panic
Blackforest, Colorado
Outdoors and
Hot air balloons
Reaching under the repair shop to find bunnies
Swinging
Singing them to sleep
The Darkness of Electricity Bills; Not Paid
Farah Fawcett hair
Sun-In and
Hairdryers
Noxzema for sensitive skin
Marlboro Gold cigarettes and coffee breath
Licking fingers laced in the stench
To wash my face
Tall Continously Empty Rossi Wine Bottles
Nyquil and
Nick at Nite to sleep by
Doing dishes, watering plants, scrubbing toilets
Being blamed for the Turkey on the floor
Thanksgiving
Alcoholism
Gifts for every Holiday,
Valentines, St Patricks and Flag Day included
Antiques
Sneeking into
Old farmhouses and barns
Crawling through barbed-wire fences
Private property
Parts
Exposĕ of things to see when stripped
With another, a man, a woman
As one
Forced
A guitar inheritance
Being enough to subdue the harm done
A trap and,
A bar brawl to teach the lesson
From all sorts of men who you loved
Loved me more
One
Taught me to chop mushrooms and smile at it all
Leaving
Any man
Treating you right, caring
Going back and tempting the hands of fate
The hate filled wear
To knock you down
Over and
Over
Again
Belt Buckles
The smack and thwhack
Against the bed, against the skin of arms covering
The face
"Shut up!"
Screaming
"Stop screaming!"
And I dont
And it is my fault now
And I no longer care
About a lot of things
As the shadows remove the threat from you
Leaving it with me
The Doors
The Cars, The Eagles and The Stones
A necessary need to repeat the song
To get lost in the music
Inability to sleep
Without absolute silence
Any noise could be
Death
Dumbo and Tears for Fears
Breast pumps as smut
Anger with bra commercials
Hiding in the bathroom next to the best smelling dream
A man
I may always search for
As the police rampage the house
Blood
All that is left in the emptiness
Auctions
Farms full of animals
Beheading chickens,
Recording the swine receiving shots
The rocking chair, reupholstered, older than me
Chewed on by a list of pets to long to name
A murdered dog
A biker's heavy hand
A lied to child
Jealousy
Munipulated guilt
The consistancy of being and remaining
Not good enough
Moving, running, packing
The bum magnet
The new adventure
Friends left behind
Made anew
Freddy Krueger
The aloneness of death
Oxygen tanks and cigarette stains in the bed
Forgiveness of the soul
Jell-O as the last means of holding on
Catholicism, Nuns and Nuts
Hospice and lazy nurses in nursing homes
Siamese Cats
Playgirl
Featuring David Lee Roth
Jump!
Small town carnivals, haunted houses and cat ears
Indian poker played with betting pennies
Stored in a tall Coca-Cola bank
Ernest and an Italian Grandmother's mustache
"Know what I mean Vern?"
Brothers
I dont know
Would have never known
May never know more than a whisper about
Inherited secrecy
No one will ever really know
Me
In the mirror
Trying so hard to not see
Her
In me
As the crazy blood boils
And the running horse bolts at the gate
Freedom