Mwa-TF?
So like.. yeah... Im completely perplexed... in the space of what felt like minutes, but was probably more like a week, I've had a dozen hits on my myspace page, mostly from Guys.. who all think i'm kinda cute/ sexy/ hot/ funny. A few chicks/ couples noticing that i checked off Bi for orientation (yes, Im back out in the open, in front of all my extended family) I got serious flirty with one, until I told him that he could dream all he wanted about thinking i'd be naked and wating for him to show up at my house, so **NOT** going to happen.. I mean, Seriously dood- craigslist mean anything to you? a serious DONT right there for you, and since I sent him a nice "Paranoid, try again" retort, he's not even said Boo to me... but, bolstered from that brief encounter, three new guys have all said Hey.. and I sed hey back... and ... well...? One could be really interesting, he says he's into capricorn women.. I got news, I might have the birthsign, i really DONT feel it, but, Im curious, WHY ME??? another one reached out from the other side of the map to say Hi, he made me laugh, so I said hey back.. now we're trying to crack eachother up =) and the last one... well...
Somehow... i agreed to meet one tomorrow for drinks.. at his house... but he's ex military, so I shouldn't worry right?? but i kinda feel bad for the kid, he's wanting to meet a girl, settle down, have a family... and well... y'all should know my answer to this by now.. I told him I could at least be fun and conversation. but as I go to hang up (i gave him my #!!) he says 'see you tomorrow beautiful" .. now wait.. he's either trying WAAY too hard... no, can't be, hes got to be trying too damn hard... *sigh* do I really come across as that easy? or am I just the flip side of that coin.. rebelling so hard at a structured relationship that i'm willing to hook up with damn near anyone... Im just glad I found my standards.. they're down there, but i Have them... and that i won't just sleep with anyThing either.. yay for progress.
And there is still that lust/ hate thing with NY, but his world is currently in upheaval hell, so i know to be patient. and with all these other options to talk to, to tease, to flirt.. yeah, my attention whore is fairly well sated... and my Ogre in OK. well.. as much as I though one thing, life, again, is reminding me that it's not MINE to plan.. but, he is happy, and we'll get to meet after all this time, and hit the con and have a blast.. i'll go broke doing it, but it should be fun =) and the boys out here that i'd met with.. well.. apparently, I need to be the aggressor here, and Im not looking for someone i need to take by the hand, if you don't have a spine of your own to start with.. i do not have the patience right now...
and of course, there's drinks after work tomorrow with Tank... *shivers* my first real Military man.. we'll see what happens. hopefully I'll be cool, and it'll all be good.. Hopefully...
I'll report back later.
~N
Somehow... i agreed to meet one tomorrow for drinks.. at his house... but he's ex military, so I shouldn't worry right?? but i kinda feel bad for the kid, he's wanting to meet a girl, settle down, have a family... and well... y'all should know my answer to this by now.. I told him I could at least be fun and conversation. but as I go to hang up (i gave him my #!!) he says 'see you tomorrow beautiful" .. now wait.. he's either trying WAAY too hard... no, can't be, hes got to be trying too damn hard... *sigh* do I really come across as that easy? or am I just the flip side of that coin.. rebelling so hard at a structured relationship that i'm willing to hook up with damn near anyone... Im just glad I found my standards.. they're down there, but i Have them... and that i won't just sleep with anyThing either.. yay for progress.
And there is still that lust/ hate thing with NY, but his world is currently in upheaval hell, so i know to be patient. and with all these other options to talk to, to tease, to flirt.. yeah, my attention whore is fairly well sated... and my Ogre in OK. well.. as much as I though one thing, life, again, is reminding me that it's not MINE to plan.. but, he is happy, and we'll get to meet after all this time, and hit the con and have a blast.. i'll go broke doing it, but it should be fun =) and the boys out here that i'd met with.. well.. apparently, I need to be the aggressor here, and Im not looking for someone i need to take by the hand, if you don't have a spine of your own to start with.. i do not have the patience right now...
and of course, there's drinks after work tomorrow with Tank... *shivers* my first real Military man.. we'll see what happens. hopefully I'll be cool, and it'll all be good.. Hopefully...
I'll report back later.
~N