Apples
You know you're living without purpose when you realize that you've been so distracted with meaningless activity that you've failed to notice the changing earth around you. Up until yesterday, that was me.
Believe it or not, it took me until yesterday to realize that the leaves have changed, the air is crisp, the apples are ripe and the whole entire state of Connecticut is enveloped in autumn. I feel disgusting because of this. How could I be so distracted not to notice something to unique to this part of the country? Something I've waited for through the summer heat (which I hate) and the winter freeze (which I also hate) and the wet and muddy spring (which wouldn't be so bad if I knew how to drive)? I can't believe I've been so blind. I know something is wrong when I can't even notice the fucking leaves.
Today I was probably one of the most beautiful days of my life. Mark took me to Lyman Orchards, where we ate a lot of food, picked a lot of apples (and ate them along the way), bought a lot of suculent treats and drowned ourselves in warm apple cider. The countryside was breathtaking. The trees were so beautiful, and the air (even though it was a tad bit chilly) was so crisp and fresh I almost felt more alive with every breath. And to be there with the person that also gives me more life with every minute was nothing short of spectacular. He knows me all too well. These things make me irreversably happy. He always brings my spirits up. I needed this.
So now, even though I have an 8:30 class tomorrow morning and 3 tests on Tuesday, I am relaxed. I actually got things done today. Aside from the fact that I probably gained my body weight and then some today, I feel like a million dollars. I am so in love with a person that loves me endlessly. What is more beautiful than that?
Believe it or not, it took me until yesterday to realize that the leaves have changed, the air is crisp, the apples are ripe and the whole entire state of Connecticut is enveloped in autumn. I feel disgusting because of this. How could I be so distracted not to notice something to unique to this part of the country? Something I've waited for through the summer heat (which I hate) and the winter freeze (which I also hate) and the wet and muddy spring (which wouldn't be so bad if I knew how to drive)? I can't believe I've been so blind. I know something is wrong when I can't even notice the fucking leaves.
Today I was probably one of the most beautiful days of my life. Mark took me to Lyman Orchards, where we ate a lot of food, picked a lot of apples (and ate them along the way), bought a lot of suculent treats and drowned ourselves in warm apple cider. The countryside was breathtaking. The trees were so beautiful, and the air (even though it was a tad bit chilly) was so crisp and fresh I almost felt more alive with every breath. And to be there with the person that also gives me more life with every minute was nothing short of spectacular. He knows me all too well. These things make me irreversably happy. He always brings my spirits up. I needed this.
So now, even though I have an 8:30 class tomorrow morning and 3 tests on Tuesday, I am relaxed. I actually got things done today. Aside from the fact that I probably gained my body weight and then some today, I feel like a million dollars. I am so in love with a person that loves me endlessly. What is more beautiful than that?