tired
i am tired-i don't mean to wine because theres people that do a hell of alot more than me, but i am.not just physically but mentaly too.my head just wont stop thinking of the what ifs what might why????i can't seem to get it to stop.and well i can't get anything i want to done.no i haven't had a ton of coffie,i wish but no.i wanto just sit down and get something done...i can't and it makes me sad.i smoked alittle the other night at the casa and boy did i hate myself,never again.cant waite to go to the doc.i wont be drinking or smoking untile my head stops spinning couse that just makes it worse.i just wanto be able to do stuff again.o.k. i'm done.
things are o.k.-been busy with school-kinda crazy but once i get to start drawing blood i'll be happy.please don't be scared,but i'm looking forward to it.i've been helping jim's sis with the baby stuff.oh it makes you want one.but if i can't deal with myself how can i take care of someone else.can't waite to meet the little man.ohh baby cheeks.tom her husband must be a super hero couse he is doing amazingly well...there both so wonderful.i finally got to see him.still telling dirty jokes and making me go red in the face.so nice to have him around.jim went to vegas and i miss him so much.looking forward to telling him about my backach-i want another one with matching rug burns.yumm.i might be achy but ohh am i in heaven. hope he's having a great time couse he needed a vacation.our friend ray invited him, hes in a kerokie compotition.he's an amazing singer.been to the casa to viset-been awhile.glad to know that everone is well and safe.might go get a tattoo with some of them for my birthday.and nick might make me a cheese cake,he's owed me for quite some time.and if jim and my mum make me one that will be three.craving cheese cake...yummy.can't waite.been working at the faire.not to many cute men this year, but i guess thats couse i'm looking forward to mine in tights.yum.o.k. i can't help it.been smelling leather and touch ing velvet and ....dirty thoughts.my kitten loves me but she wont after she goes to the vet.oh well.ohh and i bought my new baby cousin a tiger out fit for haloween and my other cousin a winnie out fit.yah haloween!!!well thats it.must go eat a klondike and go to sleep...or maybe i'll watch tank girl.uhhhh.
things are o.k.-been busy with school-kinda crazy but once i get to start drawing blood i'll be happy.please don't be scared,but i'm looking forward to it.i've been helping jim's sis with the baby stuff.oh it makes you want one.but if i can't deal with myself how can i take care of someone else.can't waite to meet the little man.ohh baby cheeks.tom her husband must be a super hero couse he is doing amazingly well...there both so wonderful.i finally got to see him.still telling dirty jokes and making me go red in the face.so nice to have him around.jim went to vegas and i miss him so much.looking forward to telling him about my backach-i want another one with matching rug burns.yumm.i might be achy but ohh am i in heaven. hope he's having a great time couse he needed a vacation.our friend ray invited him, hes in a kerokie compotition.he's an amazing singer.been to the casa to viset-been awhile.glad to know that everone is well and safe.might go get a tattoo with some of them for my birthday.and nick might make me a cheese cake,he's owed me for quite some time.and if jim and my mum make me one that will be three.craving cheese cake...yummy.can't waite.been working at the faire.not to many cute men this year, but i guess thats couse i'm looking forward to mine in tights.yum.o.k. i can't help it.been smelling leather and touch ing velvet and ....dirty thoughts.my kitten loves me but she wont after she goes to the vet.oh well.ohh and i bought my new baby cousin a tiger out fit for haloween and my other cousin a winnie out fit.yah haloween!!!well thats it.must go eat a klondike and go to sleep...or maybe i'll watch tank girl.uhhhh.