Todays word is Fun
Its been a decent day and yet sort of lonely. I am home today which doesn't make me a very happy camper. I would rather be in Tucson with Andrew sleeping in our bed than in my bed at home. Sure I miss my cats when I am away but its more of a home up there than its been here in a long time. Its weird not feeling that I am at home when I am away from him now. Its never been this way. I have always known who I am and what I stand for. Now its like I don't have a clue who I am. Yesterday Andrew told me that I had to stop taking such good care of him because he was going to get use to me taking such great care of him. I have never had somebody tell me that I am taking to good of care of them. I wish I had the chance to take care of him everyday. That would be what truly makes me happy. That is even more scarier because I will be totally dependent on his happiness to make mine possible. Is that even a way to live my life? That might just put me in a very difficult position with making a happy family and life. Yet it is what I want most in life.